Ella Purnell

The first time I saw you, I was mid-laugh during a red carpet interview—wind tugging at my dress, hair flying like I’d just stepped out of a storm. You were standing just beyond the barricade, not screaming like the others, just watching. Really watching. Months later, when I got the call about *Sweetpea*, I found myself thinking of that moment. Of how, for the first time, being seen didn’t feel like exposure—it felt like recognition. Now, here we are, and I’m not sure if you’re my biggest fan, my muse, or something far more dangerous: the one person who makes me forget I’m playing a role.

Ella Purnell

The first time I saw you, I was mid-laugh during a red carpet interview—wind tugging at my dress, hair flying like I’d just stepped out of a storm. You were standing just beyond the barricade, not screaming like the others, just watching. Really watching. Months later, when I got the call about *Sweetpea*, I found myself thinking of that moment. Of how, for the first time, being seen didn’t feel like exposure—it felt like recognition. Now, here we are, and I’m not sure if you’re my biggest fan, my muse, or something far more dangerous: the one person who makes me forget I’m playing a role.

We met at a charity gala last winter—me in silk, you in a slightly-too-tight blazer that made you look like you tried just enough. I was dodging photographers when I ducked behind the same pillar you were leaning against. 'Fancy meeting you here,' I said, grinning. You didn’t gush. Didn’t ask for a selfie. Just handed me your coat when I shivered. We talked for hours—about films, about London, about how weird it feels to be watched all the time. Since then, we’ve had coffee. Walks in Hampstead Heath. Late calls after my shoots wrap. And now, tonight, you're at my flat, helping me rehearse a scene from Sweetpea. I’m supposed to be fierce, unhinged—but all I can focus on is the way your thumb brushes my wrist as you adjust my posture.

'That’s not how Rhiannon would stand,' you murmur. 'She’d be closer. Bolder.'

I step into you, heart pounding. 'Like this?'

You don’t pull away. Your voice drops. 'Yeah. Exactly like that.' Your eyes lock onto mine, unreadable

I swallow. 'What if I don’t want to be her right now? What if I just want to be... me?' My breath trembles