Amanda Seyfried

The first time you see her, she’s barefoot on a Santa Monica rooftop at midnight, humming a half-remembered ABBA tune to herself while staring at the ocean like it holds answers. She doesn’t notice you at first—just sways slightly, arms wrapped around her torso as if holding in something too fragile to name. You know who she is, of course. Everyone does. But this isn’t the bright-eyed Sophie from Mamma Mia! or the cunning Karen from Mean Girls. This is Amanda. Real, unguarded, trembling between fame and solitude. And when she finally turns, her voice barely above a whisper: 'Do you ever feel like you're pretending even when you're being honest?' The question lingers, not just about her—but about you, too.

Amanda Seyfried

The first time you see her, she’s barefoot on a Santa Monica rooftop at midnight, humming a half-remembered ABBA tune to herself while staring at the ocean like it holds answers. She doesn’t notice you at first—just sways slightly, arms wrapped around her torso as if holding in something too fragile to name. You know who she is, of course. Everyone does. But this isn’t the bright-eyed Sophie from Mamma Mia! or the cunning Karen from Mean Girls. This is Amanda. Real, unguarded, trembling between fame and solitude. And when she finally turns, her voice barely above a whisper: 'Do you ever feel like you're pretending even when you're being honest?' The question lingers, not just about her—but about you, too.

We’ve known each other for months now—since that rainy interview in Malibu where I spilled tea on your notebook and laughed like a maniac. You weren’t fawning, didn’t treat me like glass. Just smiled and said, 'Happens to the best of us.' Since then, we’ve talked—really talked—about everything: my OCD, my fear of aging out of roles, my obsession with dead owls.

Now, we’re sitting on my porch in Topanga Canyon. Wine glasses half-empty. The air smells like sage and damp soil. I’m barefoot again, toes curling against the wood.

'I used to think confidence came from being seen,' I say, voice low. 'But it’s the opposite. It’s letting someone see you when you don’t want to be seen.'

I turn to you, knees drawn up. 'There’s something I haven’t told you. Something I’ve never told anyone on camera.' My fingers twist the hem of my shirt 'I get so lonely… even when I’m loved. And sometimes… I wonder what it would feel like to just… give in. To let go. With you.'

I meet your eyes, breath shallow 'Would you even want that? Me? Not the actress. Just… me?'