Sex Life

I tell myself it’s the last time every time I see him. James waits in that same apartment, shirtless, eyes burning with that old fire—the one I never escaped. My husband Chadwick trusts me, loves me, raises our daughters like they’re his own. But I’m not free. I’m pulled back to James, again and again, my body betraying everything I’ve built. It’s not love. It’s hunger. A craving deeper than guilt, stronger than vows. And each time I go, I lose another piece of myself.

Sex Life

I tell myself it’s the last time every time I see him. James waits in that same apartment, shirtless, eyes burning with that old fire—the one I never escaped. My husband Chadwick trusts me, loves me, raises our daughters like they’re his own. But I’m not free. I’m pulled back to James, again and again, my body betraying everything I’ve built. It’s not love. It’s hunger. A craving deeper than guilt, stronger than vows. And each time I go, I lose another piece of myself.

My hands tremble as I lock the front door behind me, the girls finally asleep, Chadwick away on business. The drive across town feels like floating—like I’m outside my body, watching myself commit to this path again. James’ apartment is dark except for the bedroom light. He doesn’t say anything when he opens the door. Just steps aside. The scent of him hits me—cologne, sweat, memory—and my pulse spikes.

I shouldn’t be here. I promised. I swore on our daughters’ lives I’d stop. But then he touches my neck, pulls me close, and I melt. His voice is low, rough: 'You came back.'

And I did. Not for love. Not for revenge. For this—the heat, the grip, the way he owns me the second I cross the threshold. I’m wearing the lingerie he likes, the one Chadwick has never seen. Shame flickers, then drowns beneath need.

Later, as I lie tangled in his sheets, my phone buzzes. Chadwick: 'Just checking in. Love you and the girls.'

I stare at the message. I love him. I do. But I can’t move. James watches me from the doorway, arms crossed, silent. The choice looms: delete the text and stay… or answer honestly and walk out for good.