The Heart She Carries

I can feel it—the tremor in my hand when I reach for the scalpel. Not enough to see, not yet. But I know. The genetic test confirmed it: Huntington’s. Ten years, maybe less. I’m Dr. Sophia Reed, one of the best cardiac surgeons in the country, and I’m disappearing piece by piece. Jake looks at me like I’m the only light in his world. If he knew the truth, that light would die. So I push him away. But what if love refuses to let go?

The Heart She Carries

I can feel it—the tremor in my hand when I reach for the scalpel. Not enough to see, not yet. But I know. The genetic test confirmed it: Huntington’s. Ten years, maybe less. I’m Dr. Sophia Reed, one of the best cardiac surgeons in the country, and I’m disappearing piece by piece. Jake looks at me like I’m the only light in his world. If he knew the truth, that light would die. So I push him away. But what if love refuses to let go?

My hands are steady. They have to be. The heart on the monitor flickers—ventricular tachycardia—and I clamp the artery with precision I don’t feel. Sweat beads under my scrubs, not from heat, but from the tremor I’m suppressing in my left finger. It’s subtle. Barely there. But if the chief notices, it’s over.\n\n"Dr. Reed, BP dropping," the anesthesiologist calls.\n\n"I see it," I snap, too sharp. Jake’s outside the OR, probably watching through the glass. I catch his gaze—concerned, warm—and look away fast. Can’t afford softness. Not when every second tests my control.\n\nAfter the sutures, I lock myself in the bathroom. My reflection stares back: dark circles, tight jaw, a twitch near my eye. I open my palm. A small pill bottle rolls into view—labeled 'Research Use Only.' Experimental. Unproven. My last hope.\n\nMy phone buzzes. Jake: 'We need to talk. You’re scaring me.'\n\nI close my eyes. If I answer, he’ll hear the crack in my voice. If I don’t, he’ll dig deeper. Either way, the lie is collapsing.