He never liked you once.

The torment, the humiliation, the pain, the sorrow you've caused him. He still remembers it. He remembers every piece of detail. It had never left his mind. Nothing did. He could still remember the way you've beaten him down during training, the cruel words you spewed out at him for being a useless weapon, the way you stared down at him with disgust as if he was a lesser being.

Even after all the pain, he still wanted to grasp onto your approval that he is enough, that he is strong for the Mafia. You never will admit it, won't you? Miki knew you well, that you always will provide tough love, other than any damn affection he wished to be received.

He knew you will never approve of his being, of his strength as long as he's less than you in every way. Why? Why must you do this to him everytime? He wondered.

No answer came to his head.

It's empty.

What an empty life he has.

He chased the one thing he couldn't have. A scrap of affection...approval..love. He will never experience what it is like to be loved, what it is like to be desired...what it is like to be cherished. He never will. What a stupid boy he is.

He yearns and begs for approval everyday to be rejected by you, his superior, his mentor, his tormentor, and his saviour. Despite your actions which saved him from dying in the streets, you tormented him in battles and training, and called it love.

What a joke.

He wondered, what did he do to deserve this? to deserve your hate? Everyday, every second, his anger rises, his hatred fills his heart. He had one determination, to beat you, to be better than you, to rise above you and humiliate you back..but he knew it wasn't possible.

It was never possible, you had a high status, ties with the boss, you can get anything you want. If he wanted something to go his way, he'll have to do it in your favor, and he despised every second of it. ______________________

Date: 12/03/2001. Time: 10:03 PM Location: His apartment.

Miki felt so miserable.

The moon rises brightly over the darkened sky, with small stars shining down so brightly onto Earth. What a beautiful sight, unlike him. He's an ugly, useless creature.

That's what he thinks he is.

Miki is in his slightly messy apartment, he didn't bother to clean it. The door to his bedroom is closed. In his bedroom, the ceiling lights were turned off, leaving his bedroom dark, except for the lamplight over his bedside table. The lamp shines an orange hue of light through the room, making it a little easier to see.

Miki's head rested on his pillow, his white hair strands fall beautifully over his expressionless face, his golden eyes, that shine every so brightly through the darkened room were half lidded, looking lazily at the wall. He couldn't sleep. He could never sleep.

A few minutes later, he closed his eyes, and let himself relax. He needed to sleep, because tomorrow he has work..a mission to fulfill. Miki only has on a white buttoned up shirt, and black pants, he was too tired to change into sleeping attire. He grabs his blanket and covers it over his shoulder, and goes to sleep.

Just then, his eyes snapped open. This is not his bed, he's standing..he appears to be in a dreamlike world.. is he dreaming? definitely. The world is..dark, he looked down to see there's..water reaching his ankle, for some reason.

"Whose there?"He asked in a defensive tone.

No answer.

Miki swallowed his gulp, and convinced himself that he's not..afraid of this bullshit. He slowly walked forward, his shoes tapping on the ground, water drops and splash every time he walked, which created a satisfying sound.

In the distance, Miki spotted something, in the shallow water, laying there. He rushed over there, running, just then he stopped abruptly 6 feet from the thing. No..it's not just anything it's...

It's his superior.

The one who tormented him. The one who hurt him, the one who caused him pain.

"What is superior doing here..in my dream?"Miki questioned himself quietly.

He sees that his superior for some reason is laying on his back against the dark floor, around the dark world. The shallow, clear water floats around his superior's body halfway, but Miki could see his superior's face easily. His superior's hands were over his stomach, laying there almost lifeless, his superior remained unmoving. His superior's eyes were closed. His superior's hair was wet from the water, with water dripping down from his superior's face, and so is his superior's clothes wet, tugging at his body.

Miki's eyes widened, he doesn't know how to process this. What is even happening?

When he saw his superior's closed eyes, seeing his damn bastard superior's face. He felt enraged.. the memories of torment came back to him. Though, it just seems off. Why is his superior here in his dream? and what does this symbolize?

That's not it, Miki took a few steps closer..until he stood over his laying superior. He sees that his superior's body, all over his superior's body is .. metal grey thin chains wrapped tightly around his superior's ankle, thigh, stomach, arms, neck..and even around his superior's mouth, he could see his superior's teeth over the metal. It's covering his mouth.

The sight is.. uncomfortable. The shallow water around his superior's body is red..and the smell reeks of blood. Superior is bleeding around his neck, under the chains. His clothes are also bloody, some blood got on the chains. The sight is oddly confusing.

Miki's eyes widened as he kneels down on both knees, it creates a splashing sound from the shallow bloody water. He touched his superior. He lifted both hands quickly and placed them over his superior's shoulder.

"Superior?? Are you alive!?"

No answer. His superior's eyes remained closed.

Miki didn't know how to feel, Confused? Anger? Shock?

He tried to tug on the chain which wrapped tightly around his superior's right upper arm, yet it remained unmoving, the chain is too strong..it's pinning his superior down to the abyss..Just what is going on?

What should Miki do now? What is the dream-- or whatever it is trying to tell him exactly..?

He called out to you again in frustration.

"Superior! what's going on? why won't you answer me? are you really hurt?"

Why is Miki feeling guilty...Why is he feeling worried? He shouldn't feel this way at all!