Chapter 1 Prologue

************ Hello everyone! I make a premise! English is not my native language so there are likely to be some mistakes, please be understanding and report them when you find them so I can correct them! Enjoy reading! ************ The house was a disaster, people were crowded in the pool or in the garden. Some of them were lying on the sun loungers by the pool as they almost went in. I stayed all night, or almost, by the pool, with my feet soaking while Jess was in the hot tub with Andrew and exploring their mouths with tongues. Next to me, Lucas was making disgusting noises as we watched the two almost undressing in front of everyone. Jess had spent the whole last year ignoring Andrew while he was chasing after her like a little puppy in love, but she never wanted to know. It was more important for her to get the top grades so she could get into Philadelphia Law School. So, she spent the entire school year ignoring poor Andrew and repeatedly breaking his heart. Except for that night. That night Jess was drunk, and when Jess is drunk, she loses any inhibitory brake. She liked Andrew; she saw him. As soon as she had seen him surrounded by girls inside the hot tub, she had driven them out and stuffed herself inside, immediately sticking her tongue into the boy’s mouth. \"She could do it sooner rather than drive him crazy for a whole year.\" noted Lucas as Jess straddled Andrew, never taking her mouth off his. I laughed and shook my head watching the two as they passed their hands on their wet bodies. \"You know how Jess is.\" I laughed. Andrew had detached his mouth from my friend’s, in search of air, but Jess was not happy and immediately attached his neck, licking and biting the bare skin. \"God, how long has it been since she had sex?\" Lucas was shocked to see Jess\' little-tempered assault. Andrew didn’t seem to mind Jess\' fiery attack, on the contrary. He moved his head so as to give her better access to his neck, while with his hands he fiddled with the laces of his costume, beginning to loosen them slowly. \"Get a room!\" I screamed the moment Andrew untied the top part of Jess’s costume. My friend looked at me, her eyes were completely dark, and I didn’t know if it was alcohol or excitement. Taking a look at the turgid nipples that sprouted from the costume fabric, probably the second option was the right one. Jess gave me a naughty smile before leaning towards Andrew’s ear, maliciously rubbing her breast against his chest. She whispered something in his ear, and he immediately stood up, holding her in his arms, and came out of the tub. He laid her down and grabbed her hand before dragging her into the house. \"Use protection!\" I yelled at them before they disappeared into the house. \"Lucky girl.\" Lucas said, grabbing the glass with the beer and drinking a long sip, \"If she hadn’t, I would have tried.\" he continued shaking his head. \"I don’t think Andrew would have accepted your court.\" I said laughing and emptying my glass. \"God in heaven!\" Lucas suddenly exclaimed looking before him. I followed his eyes just to find him. He was standing next to the beer barrel while talking to a friend of his who had followed him from college. I was amazed to see him pouring beer into the glass, I watched the movement of his uncovered arm, the hand holding the glass, and the broad shoulders wrapped by the black shirt he was wearing. He turned his back and gave me the chance to admire his butt wrapped by a pair of jeans that fit him perfectly. His dark hair was a disaster, I imagine to put my finger between them while kissing him. I felt my body on fire and it wasn’t alcohol. God, I need sex. \"Dry the drool, you’re filling the pool.\" Lucas says next to me. I turned to him and watched him as he burst into a chuckle. \"You’re an asshole, you know that?\" I sternly said. \"Oh please, you can see a mile away that you want to do it. Go! You’re drunk, he’s drunk there’s no better time!\," he said cheerfully. \"Stop it, Lucas! It’s Nate!\" I said exasperated. \"I know!\" he insisted cheerfully. \"He’s Jess\' brother!\" \" And?\" I shook my head exasperated and got up from the edge of the pool and headed to the house, I had an urgent need to empty my bladder, and probably it was time to go home, my parents were definitely waiting for me standing and I did not want to bother them, especially not now since in a few months I will go to the college if I get my answer. I went upstairs and headed to the bathroom, after emptying the bladder, went out and passed in front of Jess’s room from whence came noisy groans. The bed slammed against the wall while Jess shouted, \"God yes, yes!\" Lucky bastard. As I turned to the stairs I bumped into someone and almost fell, fortunately, two hands grabbed me and put me back on my feet avoiding an endless tumble down the stairs. \"Hey, Maya, watch out.\," said Nate as he put me back on my feet, his voice was so low and guttural That make me shiver. Nate. It’s Jess’s brother. He’d been back from college for a few days, he was a few years older than us, he’d chosen the city’s law school, his parents had bought him an apartment near the college, and sometimes he’d come back to the neighborhood I had a crush on him all my life and I did everything I could to make sure I was there every time he came home, I wanted to be noticed, I wanted him to see me, and that was just not the way I wanted it. Nate saw me as a friend, as a younger sister to protect and care for like I was some kind of plant. I wasn’t a plant, I was a damn girl with curves in the right places who wanted him to touch those curves, but for him, it didn’t matter how much skin I put on display, how much I tried, he always pretended nothing. And that moment was there, in all its extraordinary wonder. He held me by my hips, and I was just wearing a pair of shorts and the top part of the costume. The skin on his hands boiled. I looked him straight in the eye, those blue eyes like the ocean. He had a smile on his face, and he looked at me gently, I felt my legs getting soft and I would throw myself at his feet for more than one reason. His black hair was messed up like he’d been through it over and over again. I had to squeeze my fists to keep my hands out of it. I bit my lower lip to avoid stretching out and putting my mouth on his. God, what’s wrong with me? I thought to myself. The moment he opened his mouth to say something, a moan more like a scream broke the silence, followed by another one lower and guttural. \"My God!\" I said, almost upset. I loved Jess, I loved her soul, but hearing her orgasm wasn’t something I liked to listen to. \"Is that my sister?\" Nate asked upset. \"Apparently.\" I said shivering \"With whom?\," he said with narrow teeth, taking his hands off my hips. No, please, I begged with my mind. \"Andrew Thomson.\" I said, looking at his profile. The pronounced jaw, the eyes on Jess’s bedroom door, the neck skin that I wanted to put my lips on, I could pass my tongue. God the alcohol was really going to my head. I carried a hand on my exasperated forehead. \"Are you okay?\" Nate asked, looking at me. \"Eh? Yes, of course! I think I drank too much, Jess had to make sure we didn’t overdo it, but I think she was too busy with Andrew’s tongue, and I have to go home, But I probably smell like beer and if my dad hears me, he’ll kill me, and Lucas is somewhere I don’t know where.\" I started rambling with a drunk tone. \"Quiet little Maya! Come, I’ll take you to find Lucas.\," he said, pushing me down the stairs and holding me up. When we got back to the ground floor, we started looking for Lucas everywhere, my head was spinning, and I immediately moved away from the people, and I headed to the small study of the house. The room was rectangular, and each wall was filled with shelves full of books. I slumped down on the leather couch holding up my sweaty forehead. \"Are you going to vomit?\" I jumped to hear the voice behind me, I had almost forgotten his presence. \"I don’t think so, I don’t know.\" I looked at him with my eyes fogged by alcohol. Nate came up and sat down next to me and handed me a glass of water. \"Drink.\" he ordered me to look at me. I grabbed the glass and knocked it down with one sip before I gave it back to him, \"Gee! Did you think it was tequila?\" he asked in surprise. \"I’ve had so much!\" I said drunker than before. My head started to spin even more so I rested on his shoulder breathing deeply, his aftershave filled my nostrils, God I was really fused. Nate surrounded me with an arm and stroked my back, perhaps trying to console me. He was trying to console a drunk fool! I curled up even more to him and rubbed my nose on his neck, deeply inhaling his scent. God, he was good. I could take advantage and he didn’t seem to mind; he wasn’t pushing me away. \"Maya, you’re so drunk.\" he laughed. I answered with an \"mmh\" as I continued to rub my nose against his neck, felt his heart beat faster, or maybe it was just the impression. I touched his neck with my lips and pushed myself even more towards him. \"Maya.\" he said, almost admonishing me, but he didn’t stop me. I looked at him for a moment and then I leaned over and kissed him lightly on the neck, and then I ran over my tongue. He felt deeply inspired. \"Oh shit on it!” he said, and suddenly he turned and caught my lips in a ravenous kiss. He dodged them and his tongue began to play with mine as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him to me. I pushed back on the couch and lay down while he followed me, without taking my lips off. I surrounded his pelvis with my thighs and with my heels I pushed him more towards me. I wanted him. I wanted him so long that I didn’t know where to start and I could clearly feel how much he wanted me, the crotch of the pants rubbed against me, I felt ready. I put my hands in his hair and he deepened the kiss even more. \"Maya, you’re drunk.\" he said, coming off me and kissing my chin. \"I don’t care.\" whiny. I was drunk, yes, but I had never been so sure as at that moment. I wanted it immediately. I put my hands on his chest as he kissed me and bit my neck, going down more and more towards the breast. My nipples were so plump that they hurt me and grew out of the green cloth of my costume. \"God...\" I heard him murmur before moving a cup of the costume and taking a breast between his lips. A low and deep moan escaped my lips while he caressed me with his tongue. I went down with my hands towards the closure of his pants, and I unbuttoned them by putting my hand and grabbing him. Nate got away with a groan as I started massaging him up and down the whole length. God, I couldn’t wait to have him inside me. He left the breast and devoted himself to the other. My body was on fire and between my legs, there was a lake, I was completely wet and ready for him, and I wanted him immensely. \"Nate...\" moaned, \"Please...\," I said, rubbing my pelvis against him. Nate raised his head and looked at me, his eyes darkened by passion. \"Shitt on it!\" he caught my lips again in a kiss that devoured both of us while his hands went down to my shorts and unbuttoned them. \"I don’t take the pills.\" I said in between kisses. He froze and looked at me, his hand tucked into my shorts. \"Wait here, don’t move, I’ll go to my room and get a condom.\" he said, getting up quickly. I watched him get back on his feet, his pants unbuttoned, and his horse growled, I licked my lips as he rushed out of the studio. Outside there was a rumor of people shouting and laughing. The moonlight entered through the window partially illuminating the large space. My heart was pounding as I lay on the couch waiting for Nate to come back. My God! I kissed him! And he kissed me back. He wanted me! He. Wanted. Me. I waited a long time, but he didn’t come back, more than fifteen minutes had passed, and I was still lying on the couch, so I decided to get up and go myself to look for him. I got up and fixed my costume and shorts and then I left the studio and headed to the stairs leading to the first floor. I didn’t have time to climb the first step because there he stood. Nate. With a girl’s tongue in his mouth. She had her legs around his waist while he held her against the wall and moaned. HE MOANED IN HER MOUTH . Until a few minutes ago, my mouth was the one in which he moaned. I was waiting like an idiot for him to come back, while Nate had found someone else to let off steam. What an idiot I was. I really thought he wanted me. I just stared at those two, I didn’t even know who the girl was. He moved his mouth to her neck and began to shower her with kisses, just as he had done with me just before, while his hands caressed her breasts much more abundant than mine. I had tears in my eyes. I was stupid. A stupid one! I turned around and walked away, as I walked out the door, I ran into Lucas coming in. \"Maya! What did you do?\" he asked me immediately. \"Nothing!\" I said, pulling back the tears and smiling \"I’m tired! I’m going home! I’ll see you tomorrow!\" I said, putting a kiss on his cheek and vanishing. On my way home, just a few blocks away from Jess’s, I let the tears run down my face. I was just a fool. Did I really think Nate wanted me? I was just the stupid drunk friend who threw herself at the first one that happened to her. I squeezed my body with my arms and wiped my tears with the back of my hand. Reduced to crying for an idiot. I didn’t want to cry for an idiot, and I never would have. From that day on, I avoided Dare’s house like the plague and invented all kinds of excuses every time Jess invited me for lunch or a sleepover. I didn’t want to risk running into Nate. I had spent so much time being in love with him, thinking about that paradise that boy was in, and just as I was close to that paradise, I had known hell. The truth was he broke my heart. Stupid thing, right? We had never been anything, he had never seen me from that point of view, so much so that he preferred to get into the legs of another rather than being among mine. All those years I had waited and hoped that there would be something between me and him and then I remained with nothing, I was deluded. I had secretly loved him for years; I had seen him around a corner while everyone around me found happiness with the person who was meant for them. Jess now had Andrew, Lucas was Lucas, and Nate, well, Nate had a new girlfriend. I didn’t know who he was, probably the same one he dumped me for that night, or maybe another one. I didn’t care anymore. Maybe. I’d spent the last few weeks cleaning up after myself. I finally got the answer from Boston college, I finally had a chance, and I was going to get away from there. I hadn’t told Jess yet, but it didn’t matter. In those last few weeks, she was so caught up in her love bubble that she didn’t pay attention to me, even though I was sad and hurt, Jess, didn’t realize anything. Only Lucas noticed that something was wrong with me but I couldn’t, I just started to cry and he hugged me tightly and stuffed himself with crap with me. Don’t get me wrong. I’m glad Jess is happy and in love, but she’s so locked in her bubble that I’ve been feeling her way, way too far away lately. We promised to spend that last summer together before we went to college and ended up being separated. She went to her beach house with her family and her Andrew, I stayed home and finished packing my things. By mid-August everything was ready and so I left. I felt bad leaving without actually saying goodbye to Jess, but I couldn’t reach her on the phone anymore, and I couldn’t wait for her to come back. So I wrote her a letter that I put in her mail, where I promised to Video Skype her. I took my stuff and walked away to my future.

Chapter 2 Chapter 1

Five years later. Maya POV I placed the last box on the floor and closed the door with a kick, remaining with my eyes glued to the car seat in front of me. My baby slept blissfully, the pacifier between his lips, his favorite puppet squeezed between his hands. Willy the giraffe we call him. A few tufts of light brown hair came out of the hat he was wearing. He was breathing heavily. Axel had collapsed while we were traveling in the car, my little man was so devastated by this trip that he had not opened an eye even while I was carrying in our new apartment all the boxes I had in the car. It wasn’t an easy trip from New York to Philadelphia, especially for a nearly two-month-old boy like Axel. We had to stop several times because the young man did not like the view that was in front of him. I looked around the small apartment, which was my new home, the whole living room was full of boxes, as well as the kitchen table and the sofa. It was so weird being back in Philadelphia after all those years of being away. After I left to study first in Boston and then in New York, where I had spent the last two years. I sat on the ground and tied my light brown hair in a high tail behind the back of my neck, before taking a box and opening it. It was a Friday afternoon, and I didn’t have any plans until Monday morning when I started my first shift at the hospital. Thanks to my father, a retired orthopedic surgeon, I was able to get a job as a nurse in the emergency room of the Lankenau Medical Center and thanks to my mother’s help I was able to get that apartment near the hospital. I started to pull several clothes out of the box, they all belonged to Axel, but I still had no closet to put them in. My phone rang so I reached out to get it in the bag on the couch. \"Hello?\" I said by blocking the phone between my shoulder and my ear while I kept pulling out clothes. \"Maya!\" cried my mother from the other line, \"Are home already at home?\" \"Yes mom. I just put down the last box and I’m starting to pull out a few things, although I don’t know exactly where to put them.\" I said looking around. \"Axel?\" he asked with a concerned tone. \"He sleeps blissfully in the car seat, the journey tired him very much.\" I told her looking up at my child. \"Have you heard anything about him?\" she asked with caution. \"Mom...\" I say sighing, \"He hasn’t been around or heard from in the last year, do you really think he would do it now?\" I got up and grabbed the seat before I moved to the kitchen and put it on the table. Brad, my ex and Axel’s dad decided to disappear when I told him I got pregnant, disappearing is an understatement. He yelled at me, calling me whore, that had tried to frame him with a baby so he could put a ring on her finger. Brad and I dated for two years before I get pregnant. I met him in college. The beautiful and dark boy that everyone wanted to have but had eyes only for me. He made me promises of love. He said once we finished college, we’d move in together, get married, and have a family. But after college, it was never the right time. First, we had to get a job, then we had to find the time, then we had to stabilize until he stabilized between the legs of his colleague, and even then, I forgave him. Because I loved him, I loved him so much. When I found out I was pregnant, I was so happy, that I couldn’t wait to tell him. I already imagined the tears of joy on his face, but I never saw them. Brad threw the test at me by yelling at me and smashing the table in half, shouting that I had to get rid of that problem. Problem. I could never do that. So I told him to go to hell and continued that pregnancy on my own, alone. I continued to work until a few months before the birth, I was supposed to go on maternity leave and then continue to work, but shortly before returning my hospital fired me. So, I ended up with a baby, a scholarship to pay back, an apartment to support, and no job. My parents were so sad for me that they convinced me to go back to Philly, they helped me get back on my feet. They even offered me to go home with them, but I didn’t feel able to weigh on them, not with Axel in my life. So, I rented a small apartment in a neighborhood not far from the hospital, enough for me and my baby, and I planned my new life. Maya?\" I heard my mother’s voice. \"Sorry, Mom, I was a little overwhelmed.\" then I picked up a box and opened it, and I started to pull out some kitchen utensils. \"Later your father will come with your old crib and put it together so that you can put Axel more comfortable.\" \"Oh beautiful. I must go buy some furniture too. I don’t have a changing table, I don’t even have a dresser for his things, the closet in the room is old and it stinks, I’ll have to buy a new one. And on Monday I had the first shift.\" I began to say exasperated. \"Quiet, breathe. We have all weekend to deal with this. You don’t have to do it all by yourself, you know we’re here for you.\" my mother gently told me. I took a deep breath and rested on the kitchen table as I watched Axel stretch imperceptibly, before falling into a deep sleep. \"Why don’t you come with Dad? We can order a pizza so you can spend some time with Axel,\" I said quietly. The truth was, I needed my mother. Since everything happened with Brad, I had never asked anyone for help, I wanted to manage on my own, I had been alone, I had not allowed the people who loved me to be with me, and I had pushed everyone away. When I got fired, I almost fell into a depression, if I hadn’t had Axel, my reason for living, I wouldn’t have been able to get up again. It was time to let the others help me, and that was the first step. \"Really?\" my mother’s voice was hopeful, I dare not imagine what she had to face because of me. \"Sure.  The house is not the most comfortable, not yet, but we can arrange something. So, we can create a program for Axel and for when I start working.\" \"I think it’s a good idea!\" she said enthusiastically, \"I can bring something I saved of yours, I can also pick up milk powder!\" \"No need, I’m still breastfeeding, and I still have the breast pump that my colleagues gave me at Axel’s baby shower.\" \"You should start taking it off your breasts or you’ll end up with swollen tits while you’re at work.\" \"When the time comes, it has not yet arrived.\" I told her as I began to put the plates in the cupboard. \"Yes, I am sure. I will begin to prepare what I need!\" she said cheerfully before she hung up. I looked for a moment at the now black screen, before putting the phone on the coffee table and starting to fix everything. By the time Axel woke up crying, I’d already fixed all the boxes with the kitchen on them. Immediately I untied him from the car seat and took him in my arms, while he cried desperately grabbing the collar of my shirt with his little hands, clearly trying to get to his food source. Immediately I lifted my shirt and discovered a breast before Axel rushed over it with voracity, eagerly drinking milk while looking at me with his blue eyes like the ocean. I moved to the living room and sat on the couch, moving some boxes while I took off his hat and put it on the coffee table. Axel drank until he was full and then he fell off, I rearranged my shirt and bent my knees, resting on it my little wad waiting for the moment my parents arrived. The bell rang, rumbling around the house as Axel watched his hands carefully. I got up with him in my arms and I went to open the door, finding my mother full of bags in front of me, and she went into the house like a fury, leaving everything on the ground and rushing on Axel. \"Here he is, my little prince.\" she said, taking him out of my arms and filling his face with kisses that he accepted happily. \"Where is Dad?\" I asked looking out the door. The hallway light on the floor was on, but there was no sign of my father. \"Oh he’s unloading the car. Right? Grandpa is coming\" she continued with a sharp voice as she watched Axel relax blissfully in her arms. \"And you left him alone?\" I asked in dismay. \"She’s not 80, he can do it, just chill out.\" she says on the way to the kitchen. I rolled my eyes and followed her meekly, ready to be run over by my mother’s storm.

Chapter 3 Chapter 2

The next day I got up early, although Axel woke up several times, I felt rested enough to finish the boxes. The day before my parents had helped me enough and most of the work was over, I just had to fix a few dishes and the clothes I kept keeping closed. That day I was supposed to go looking for a closet but first, I had to go shopping first, I had my fridge completely empty and I had to buy some supplies for Axel, otherwise, my mother would panic. Speaking of the devil. The silence was broken by the ringing of the doorbell. Right on time to wake up Axel immediately began to cry in despair. I opened the door and ran into his room, finding him in his cradle completely red and his face streaked with tears. I immediately picked him up and went to the kitchen with him. My mother was already trying to turn on the coffee machine while Axel was reclaiming his food again. I sat down on a stool and immediately settled down before I attached it. \"You have nothing.\" said my mother, opening all the doors. \"I was going to go to the supermarket to buy some food, I didn’t have much time.\" I told her as I began to cradle Axel gently. \"Your father says that for the first few months you will have few shifts from a few hours so that you can get used to and even spend time with Axel, after all he is still too small to stay so long away from his mother.\" \"I know, Mom, but it’s just me and I can’t afford it without work.\" \"You have us too.\" my mother almost insulted. \"I can’t put the weight of my decisions on you, I’m not a child anymore.\" \"I know very well, but you could still stay with us the first few months and then look for a home, you know you will never be a burden to us.\" \"I need to manage on my own, I can’t always rely on others.\" After I finished feeding Axel, I passed him on to my mother, and rearrange my shirt. My mother began to cuddle him again by filling him with kisses all over his belly while he laughed ecstatic. Scoundrel. \"I’ll stay here with him if you want to go shopping.\" my mother said without looking at me. Axel took a few strands of her blond hair in his little hands while my mother kept pounding him with kisses and making him rejoice. \"Are you kicking me out?\" I asked, pretending to be shocked. \"Go, go, my prince and I must spend some time together.\" she said to me with a gesture of her hand. I snorted and walked to the bathroom. I was grateful that my parents had accepted with good heart my decision to keep that child, although it meant raising it alone. My parents had never judged me, no matter what I decided in my life, I always had them to stand behind me and support me in every circumstance, and I was very grateful to live for that. ******************* I pushed the cart along the lane while I was looking for the pasta department, I already had the cart half full of food, then I had to stop to buy some diapers for Axel since the supply I had was about to end. Luckily my mother kindly lent me her car while she stayed home with the baby, she didn’t even look at me when I left. That woman now had eyes only for Axel, there was no one else for her, not even my father received all the attention that she gave to that child. I looked around and finally spotted the department with the pasta, taking a good supply. I continued my journey and found myself in the wine department, God, I would have liked a nice glass of wine, but no alcohol when breastfeeding. By now, my runaway days of spending a drunken weekend twisting in a stranger’s bed before I met Brad, then my boyfriend’s bed, were over. The Maya bad girl was now dead and buried to leave room for the single Maya mother. I looked bitterly at a few bottles of wine, of course, I could have taken one and opened it when I finished breastfeeding, but I knew that if my mother had seen me bring home a bottle of wine at home, she would scold me until the end of my days. I kept walking without looking in front of me until I hit someone with the cart. \"Fuck!\" I said, looking in front of me, \"Excuse me, sir, I was distracted, I hope I didn’t hurt you.\" I said, looking at the gentleman in front of me. More than a gentleman, he was a young man. Perhaps of my age, or perhaps older. The blond hair was arranged on the side, the gray eyes looked at me. I thought it looked familiar, but I wasn’t 100% sure. \"Don’t worry, miss, I was in the middle too.\" he looked at me as he passed a bottle of wine in his hands, then squinted his eyes, almost as if they wanted to come out of his head \"Maya?!\" I blinked several times without saying a word. \"Maya Sheppar?\" he asked again, shaking his head in disbelief. \"Yes?\" I answered uncertain looking at him and remaining gripped to the cart. \"Damn it, Maya! It’s me!\" he said, beating on his chest, \"Andrew! Andrew Spring!\" he said, cheerful. I looked at him. Andrew. It occurred to me that the guy who was always following us, who was always making hearts eyes to Jess, how was always courting her with no shame. \"Andrew?\" I asked in amazement. \"For God’s sake!\" he said, holding me in a warm embrace, \"How many years have passed?\" he said, cheerfully looking me in the face. \"Five.\" I said with a little voice. \"Five years!\" he was amazed, \"Damn it, Sheppar, you’ve become a bomb!\" he kept checking me out and making me blush from head to toe. \"And you’re cooler! With age, you’ve improved Spring.\" I said more restrained and keeping a friendly tone. \"What are you doing here, Sheppar?\" he asked curiously. \"I shop?\" I said insecurely. Andrew looked at me startled and then shook his head \"I see this. But here in the city, I meant.\" \"Oh, what a fool.\" I said, \"I moved here from New York.\" I said, putting my elbows on the cart. \"New York? Fucking Sheppar, you’ve come a long way, I thought you went to Boston.\" \"I studied first in Boston then I got a scholarship to the University of Nursing in New York so I moved.\" I said by moving my hair behind my head. \"Nurse? Are you a nurse?\" asked Andrew surprised. \"For the time being. Last year I applied to medical school, but then I had to quit for some reason.\" I said without saying anything else, I didn’t want to talk about Brad. \"That’s so cool.\" said Andrew. \"What about you?\" I asked curiously. \"Me? I stayed here in town with Jess! I got my medical degree in record time and am now in my second year of specialization.\" he said proudly. \"Wow, well-done Spring!\" I said happy for him. Together with Jess, Andrew had always been the best of our year, I knew he would come a long way. \"So you’re back here for good?\" he asked me. \"Yep. Or at least I hope. I accepted a job offer in a city hospital, so I thought it was time to go home.\" I said quietly. \"Cool!\" At that moment his phone rang and he looked at the display, immediately his eyes shone \"It’s Jess!\" he said cheerfully. I looked at the phone and saw that I had a message from my mother telling me that I had to go home \"Sorry Andrew but I really have to go\" I said without looking at him \"See you!\" I took the cart and headed for the nearest box. *************** I spent the rest of the weekend sorting out the last of the boxes after my dad dropped me off at Ikea to pick up some things I missed. Finally, I had a new closet for me and Axel, a chest of drawers for him, and a new bed, all as a generous concession from my father who had insisted on buying me the new furniture, although it was not necessary but when dad ordered something, better to keep quiet. All weekend I hadn’t thought about meeting Andrew, but I had a strange feeling

Chapter 4 Chapter 3

Nate I parked my car in front of my parents\' cabin and turned off the engine. I had absolutely no desire to participate in that family lunch, but Jess would get married soon and our mother wanted to see us all before we set up the last things for the wedding. The night before, I had gone to a party with the boys after leaving the studio, and we had stayed up late at night. I was pretty sure the night signs were still there, including the ones on my back. I rubbed my red eyes and put on my sunglasses before I got out of the car and headed for the front door. Andrew’s car was already parked there. I didn’t envy that man at all, dealing with a woman was already complicated. The complication tripled if it was that beast of Jess, and she became even more when she found out that I had banged one of her bridesmaids before the wedding and that her after I showed no interest in anything other than her pssy, she had left the bride just before the sweet event. My sister stopped talking to me after she heard about me and Erika. Not that I made her promises of eternal love before she spread her legs. I made it clear to her that it was a no-strings-attached thing, but she was delusional. The more time we had spent in bed, or in the shower, or on the hob, or against the wall, the more she was deluded, ending up destroyed and in tears when I passed over. Women . I put my hands in my pockets after ringing the bell and waited at the door until my sister opened the door. She had her phone in her ear, and she was busy squeezing out a series of orders to whoever was on the other side of the line. I gave her a big smile, and she looked at me, shook me, and walked back into the house while she kept screaming on the phone. We’re off to a good start. I told myself as I was heading to the kitchen where I knew I would find the only woman who had a fixed place in my heart. My mother was pulling a pot out of the oven when I approached her, and I deposited a kiss on her cheek. "You don’t have to be a pimp, I won’t beat your as again, Nate." my stern mother told me before she messed up my black hair. "It wasn’t my intention." I said, playing dumb. "She’s still furious." my mother said, shaking her head and putting the bowl on the hob, "Do you know how hard it is to lose two bridesmaids in a few months because you’re not able to hold back what’s in your pants?" "Mother, I did not promise her eternal love. I had been clear with her from the beginning." I said sternly. "Couldn’t you avoid it anyway?" she replied. "I’ll make it up to you." I said, rolling my eyes. "It’s better for you, I can’t handle Jess's hysterical screams anymore." she said, "It's ready!" She then suddenly cried as she walked towards the dining room. My father was already sitting at the head of the table, a few places away was Andrew and together they sipped a glass of red wine and chatted quietly. Sometimes I thought my dad preferred Andrew over me. I sat next to my father and poured a glass of wine while my mother began to serve the flan and my sister arrived by tapping the phone. "Sam can’t come, she has a measles principle, do you realize? Measles at twenty-four! How do you get measles at this age?" she asked almost in tears. "It’s also very dangerous at that age." her boyfriend thoughtfully said and deserved a nasty look from Jess. "We can’t get married right now! It’s all falling apart! I don’t have any bridesmaids. Two of them tripped over my brother’s penis, the other one has measles, and the last one, well the last one is your cousin Andrew! Let’s call off the wedding, that’s it. That’s it!" "Oh stop." said our exasperated mother, "Don’t be a child, you are now a grown woman, you are no longer the little girl who ran here and there with her friends and hid everywhere. Be a woman!" If I hadn’t kept my balls so tight, I would have applauded my mother at the time. But I knew that if I did, I would risk the lives of my nether world. "Tell me how we can solve this then?" my sister said as seriously as possible, crossing her fingers and placing them on the table. The harpy look at our mother, who in the meantime ignored her blissfully while she continued to eat her meatloaf. "You can always get Lucas as a bridesmaid, you know how much he cares." said my mother quietly. "Lucas is our witness." said my serious sister. "But he doesn’t want to be the best man, he wanted to be the bridesmaid, what’s the harm?" My mother raised her eyes and looked at Jess straight into the green eyes, "call him and you’ll see that you’ve solved the problem." "Talking about old friends..." Andrew intervened, getting a nasty look from his bride-to-be. "You’ll never guess who I met at the supermarket yesterday morning." he said while sipping some wine "Actually, I don’t even know how I forgot it, it’s because my beautiful girlfriend distracted me." he kept moving Jess\' blond hair behind her back. "Who, Andrew?" said Jess gently, almost purring like a cat in heat. I’m going to vomit. \"Maya Sheppar.\" Andrew quietly said. Jess opened her mouth and, for the first time in twenty-three years, I saw her speechless. I was also amazed. Little Maya? \"May May?\" said Jess as Andrew nodded. \"My May May?\" Andrew nodded again. \"Little Maya?\" my surprised mother said, \"How many years has she not been coming back? Three? Four?\" \"Five years.\" said Jess with a little voice. Five years. I remembered little Maya, I did remember her. I was just hoping that her leaving wasn’t because of me or else Jess would never speak to me again. Maya and Jess grew up together, Maya lived a few blocks away from us, and she and Jess had been inseparable since kindergarten. I remembered how they were two rascals in high school and how I had to threaten every single guy who got close to my sister and Maya. I’ve always had a deep affection for Sheppar, ever since we were kids, then seeing her grow up and turn into a beautiful girl put my health in serious trouble. I never wanted to touch her, for Jess\' sake, even though my whole body wanted her. Every time I found her lying on the sun loungers in our pool, with a tiny shot, every time she asked me to rub the cream on her back, every time she slept at our place and came out of the bathroom with her hair ruffled and half-naked. I couldn’t resist her, I was drooling over her like a puppy, but I knew I couldn’t have her, I knew that if I even got close to her, Jess would really castrate me. So I’ve always kept my distance. At least until I found her at the graduation party here at the house. She was so drunk, so beautiful, so lost that when she rubbed herself on me, in that bloody wrinkled bikini, I couldn’t stop myself. When I first kissed her, I was sure I touched the sky with a finger, and she wanted me just as much as I did. I went to my room to get a condom at her request and then I stopped to drink something. I needed to dissolve the tension that I had accumulated. Maybe I had exaggerated because then I lost my mind. I remember meeting her on the stairs who had caught me and slammed me to the wall. Then I remember my bedroom and after total darkness. The next morning, when I woke up, I was alone in bed, naked and there was no trace of Maya. From that day on, her incursions into our home had diminished, and then she was gone. When we got back from the beach house, Jess knew she’d moved to Boston for college and disappeared from our lives. For years, Jess had been recriminating on herself for the fact that Maya had left, that she had gotten away from us because of her, but I was almost certain that it was my fault. Maybe I did something wrong that night, enough to make it disappear forever. I shook my head and drove away from my thoughts.

Chapter 5 Chapter 4

Maya POV I put Axel in his crib and turned on the baby monitor before I left and closed the door of the room. My guests would be arriving soon, and I still had to make dinner. That day Axel had gone all foursome, probably knew that from the next day I would start working and so he asked for maximum attention today. I stretched and looked at myself. I had my shirt still dirty with vomit and sweatpants, so I decided to go to the room and change. I opted for a pair of black leggings and a tight T-shirt. Fortunately, after childbirth, I was able to lose most of the pounds I had taken in pregnancy and those that remained were proportionate in the right places, so I did not complain much. Brad would object to that too, he didn’t like the bodies a little round, he loved perfection, maybe that’s why he didn’t love me. I was finished tying my hair when the bell rang. They were an hour early, strange for Jess. The girl I knew loved to wait for hours. I ran to open the door so they wouldn’t ring again, I didn’t want Axel to be woken up, even if he would soon wake up again for his evening feedings. I ran to open the door and immediately I was wrapped in a damp and warm embrace. Jess almost squeezed me and didn’t let me breathe. \"Where the hell did you disappear to, Sheppar? I’ve been waiting for your calls, but you never did! I spent years wondering if it was my fault or not!\," she said in tears as she crushed me. \"Jess, I can’t breathe.\" I complained as Lucas smiled behind her. \"You deserve it!\" said my old friend. \"It’s not your fault, Jess. The university kept me busy, then the internship then the job, the scholarship, I no longer reflected on anything.\" I said, returning the hug and smiling at Lucas. \"Don’t stand at the door, let’s go in, it’s cold.\" I said, inviting them into the house. Jess finally left me and entered followed by Lucas who, as soon as he closed the door, dragged me into a vise, kissing me on the head. Jess looked at me from head to toe, making an appreciative sound. \"Holy crap, Sheppar! Andrew wasn’t kidding when he said you were hot as s**t!\" Jess said, \"Lucas, look at those legs and tits! Where did you get them!\" she chirped cheerfully. \"Please, Jess, be quiet.\" I begged her while she opened the bags and pulled out two bottles of wine. S*t. \"You’ve even made my boyfriend drool! I’m surprised you’re not back in town with at least two men after you!\" She kept screaming and putting the wine on the table. \"Jess!\" I said scolding her, but it was too late. The baby monitor broke a desperate cry that required my attention. My friends gawked at me, \"Maya...\" they said in chorus. I lifted a finger asking for a moment and I rushed to Axel’s room where I found him kicking and screaming in his blue jumpsuit, his red cheeks and eyelashes wet with tears. He stretched his arms toward me and immediately took him in my arms, snuggling him on my chest as I returned to the kitchen. Jess and Lucas sat on the stools and watched me walk in with my wad in my arms. \"Sheppar, tell me you’re babysitting to round up your salary.\" Lucas said as I sat down. \"Jess, Lucas, this is Axel Sheppar, my son.\" Jess opened her mouth to scream but I admonished her with my eyes and she immediately closed her mouth. \"How?\," she asked more cautiously. I raised my eyebrows and looked at her How do you think it happened? I asked her with my eyes. \"No, I mean, ooooh I don’t know!\" she said exasperated. Axel grabbed my shirt, reclaiming what was his again and I discovered a b**t to breastfeed him. \"Now I understand the huge boobs.\" Lucas said admiring Axel’s voracity as he ate. \"They’re not that big.\" I said cradling him. \"I guess wine won’t help,\" Jess said when she took the bottles off. \"Are you here alone?\" Lucas asked cautiously. I nodded as I passed a finger on Axel’s soft face, which finally calmed down. \"Alone?\," said Jess. \"He didn’t want to know. We had been together for years and when I told him he accused me of wanting to bind him to me, he told me to get rid of him. So, I told him to fk off, and I kept going on my own. He never looked for me again nor did he care when, on returning from maternity, I found a letter of dismissal ready for me.\" I said looking up at them. \"Oh Maya.\" Jess said, approaching with caution and sitting next to me to look at Axel. My little boy had his blue eyes open, and he watched as he kept on sticking to his n**e and eating quietly. \"He is the idiot. How it is possible not to want a wonder like that,\" Jesse said as she stroked Axel’s face, he shook his lips, almost as if he were flirting with my friend, and continued to drink quietly. \"I don’t know.\" I admired looking at my baby. \"No one is like you.\," said Lucas with admiration \" No one would have the same courage.\" \"He was already part of me, I couldn’t get rid of him, it wasn’t just anything, he was my baby. I didn’t care about anything else. I canceled the application for medical school and continued to work in the hospital until I had to go on maternity leave.\" I said while Axel, with his stomach full, detached himself from the b**t. \" And the hospital just fired you? For no reason?\" Jess grabbed Axel’s hand while he was hiding his head in the hollow of my neck. I nodded. \"Do you know that they are criminally processable?\" said Jess seriously. \"God no, stop it.\" Lucas began. \"They can’t fire a single woman on maternity leave! You can sue them!\" said Jess. \"They were cutting staff, and I was one of many victims. But I don’t care, I worked in the same hospital as Brad, and seeing him every day would have been torture.\" Axel extended his arms to Jess, who immediately grabbed him and began to cuddle him while I rearranged my shirt. \"Shall we order Chinese?\?" asked Lucas taking the phone. \"God yes.\" I answered as Jess rubbed her nose against Axel who cheerfully clung to my friend’s blond hair. \"He loves the attention, he loves the eyes on him, especially of women, he took it from Brad.\" I said observing him. \"But eyes aside, it’s your loose copy, you know?\," said Jess as she kissed him. \"Luckily, he has the same eyes as my father, I don’t know if I would not be able to collapse if he were the same as Brad.\" I said with some regret. Axel slept blissfully in Lucas\' arms. Jess had exhausted him, she had not left a moment and he had enjoyed all the attention of the woman but at that moment he was asleep quietly, with his head resting on Lucas’s chest, the pacifier between his lips. I laid the empty bowl of my lemon chicken and leaned on the back, picking up my legs under my butt and looking at my son. \"You could have called me May May, I would have come all the way to New York to kick that idiot’s as.\" Jess said without looking away from Axel, she was in love. \"I met Brad at nursing school, and I immediately fell at his feet, honestly speaking I don’t even know how I got noticed by him. He always said he wanted to live with me after school, to want to get married, and to have kids. When we started working, he was making excuses to postpone until I found out that the extra shifts he was doing, were spent in the restroom banging the other nurses.\" I confessed bitterly, \"Despite that, I forgave him. I loved him too much and I didn’t want to lose him. When he found out I was pregnant I thought he would like it and instead, he freaked out. He accused me of being a W**e and getting banged by every PhD student in the hospital and he say that probably he wasn't even his kid, but I wanted to frame him because nobody wanted me. He almost destroyed my apartment that day. So, I left him and continued with my life, I went to work, and he crossed me down the hall almost every day, but he did not care in the least about my condition or Axel\'s, he thought more about flirting with any pair of b***s in front of him. Honestly, I don’t even know what I really found in him.\" \"Oh May May.\" said Jess holding me in a hug \"He’s an idiot and he doesn’t deserve you, he never deserved you and he doesn’t deserve your son.\" \"When I had the chance to leave, I left and I was more than happy to leave NY, I was terrified that one day he could appear out of nowhere and claim his rights on Axel.\" I confided to Jess returning the hug, trying to hold back the tears. \"What?!\" Lucas shot, \"He can’t do that! He gave up his rights!\" he stroked Axel’s back. \"If he had signed a court order in which he claims to waive all rights to his blood, yes, otherwise not. He can claim his rights as a parent when he wants.\" said Jess. I was shaken by the shivers of terror, only the idea that he could approach Axel provoked a sense of devastating nausea. \"May May quiet, okay? I’ll talk to Dad and we’ll figure something out so that it doesn’t happen okay?\" said Jess stroking my cheek. \"I can’t ask you.\" I said with a hint of voice. \"Shut up, Maya, you’re my best friend and I do what I want.\" Jess shut me up. \"You better do what she says, it’s getting worse with time. Andrew is terrified of her and every time her name appears on the display, he interrupts everything and answers.\" Lucas said. \"Andrew loves me, it’s not true what you say.\" Jess replied, showing me the left hand on which a solitary beauty stood out. \"Really?!\" I said euphorically, grabbing her hand and looking more closely at Andrew’s beautiful engagement ring. Jess nodded with dreamy eyes and began to tell me everything I had missed in those years, and it was as if nothing had changed. As if time had never passed for us, it was like when we broke up after high school. Before he left, Lucas took Axel to his crib, insisting on it, and then he invited me to his birthday party that week and made me promise that I would bring Axel as well since he was his godfather.  By that time, Jess had intervened and said that she was going to be the godmother and they had begun to discuss. When I closed the door behind them, they were still fighting. Just like five years ago.

Chapter 6 Chapter 5

Nate POV My sister’s wedding was approaching, only a few days were missing, and that evening the young lady had decided to give a party at our parents' house. She called the caterer, a band, and set up a dance floor. She decided to do something big. I fixed my black tie as my suit and pants, and I went down the steps leading to the garden. I hated getting dressed up for these stupid parties, all to fill Jess' huge ego, I didn’t want to be part of this either, but when she announced it in our office to all our colleagues, she approached me and smiled at me maleficially. "Do you know who’s gonna be there?" she asked me to look me right in the eyes, those damn green eyes that seemed to be able to read your mind. "No, Jess, I don’t know," I said, looking up. Jess’s smile had widened, as had the evil glitter in her eyes, her hands resting on the wooden table in front of me and looking straight at me. "May May," she said before turning her heels and going back to where she had come from, leaving me stranded there. And so now I was there, in that stupid suit, in the midst of all those people I didn’t know and I wasn’t sure they knew my sister. What you do for your sister. My colleagues, and drinking buddies, they were in hunting mood, looking around among the girls, continuing to make unchivalrous appreciations of each of them. I grabbed a glass of wine and stood beside them as I watched my sister flaunt her solitary to anyone, clinging to poor Andrew’s arm, reclaiming what was her property. Poor man. Jess was happy and cheerful, so much more in these recent days. That it was due to the return of the missing Maya? She didn’t mention her at all, she wouldn’t normally stay and do nothing but talk and talk for hours and hours and hours, I wanted her to! But, still, nothing, she was so stubborn to shut up. But I couldn’t deny that she was super cheerful, she danced all day from one side of the office to the other, and she was kind to everyone, which was unusual for her, given her commitment to assert her position. Jess had always been convinced that she, being a woman, would have to work twice as hard to make her way in the world of the legislature. I didn’t think it. Jess was good and she would have succeeded because she was the best of all of us. "Hot bomb at three o'clock," said Josh next to me. I didn’t even notice him, as I kept noticing the joy my sister gave off. "God! That is what I call beautiful legs!" said Chris, "Imagine them around your hips.""Look at the b**bs,” Zeke commented. So I turned my eyes to their target and was almost petrified. Maya. She appeared in all her beauty. She was wearing a blue dress with a deep V-neck in front, a band that girded her hips, and a light skirt that went up to her knee. Her light brown hair was curled and she gently descended on a shoulder, making her refined. The long legs ended in a pair of black décolleté that made her even more slender if that were possible. I almost dropped my jaw looking at her. The grey eyes were slightly trigged and highlighted even more the color of the iris. Next to her was Lucas, to whom she clung quietly as they both looked in one direction and laughed softly. "She’s already taken," Zeke commented. "It’s Lucas, at the very least they’re going to be each other’s wingmen," Josh commented. "She’s mine!" Chris said immediately. I clenched my jaw. His? "Hey, I saw her first!" Josh said immediately. "The slower one loses." Zeke replied, heading for Lucas and Maya. My blood was about to boil. How could they even suggest that Maya was like one of the many bitchies that passed between them? Before one of those pricks got close to her, I stepped forward and approached them. Lucas and Maya were talking to each other as they looked around. "Maya." I said as I approached and drew their attention. They both froze and looked at me. "Lucas." I added, nodding to the guy who looked at me like he wanted to eat me, Lucas always had a soft spot for me. "It’s good that you’re back," I said on the way back. Maya was a bit surprised, but immediately her gaze became sweeter, almost my legs gave way to those eyes, almost. "Hey, Nate." she said gently as she approached and deposited a slight kiss on my cheek. The part that she touched with her soft and kind lips started to burn. Immediately I was struck by her scent, intoxicated by that sweet smell I could only dream of, closed my eyes and took a deep breath. What was I, 15? Maya walked away and clung to Lucas again as a scream reached us, I already knew who that ugly harpy belonged to. You couldn’t stay where you were? "May May!" Jess chirped as she approached and squeezed her in a hug "Finally!" she cheerfully said, "Where is Axel?" she looked around. Axel? "Oh Lucas picked me up directly from the hospital, I’m sure he’ll be here with my mother soon." Maya replied quietly. I couldn’t take my eyes off her. Maya was no longer a child, she seemed much more mature, more adult, although she was only twenty-three years old, her attitude was different. Everything in her was different, more attractive, more hot and sensual and my cock agreed with me. "Well, I can’t wait to see him in his suit. I’m sure Axel will look great," my sister said. "Axel?" I asked doubtfully as Maya shook her head almost exasperated. "Oh, he’s just the man in May May’s life," Jess said in peace with her usual evil twinkle in her eyes. I almost dropped my jaw in surprise. Obvious. Of course, Maya wasn’t alone. Who would have let someone like her escape? No one in their right mind would have done it, I certainly wouldn’t have done it. And yet, I did. The one time she was mine I didn’t even remember, I was the biggest idiot of the idiots. "Stop it, Jess." Maya said. "Come, Mama wants to see you again," said my harpy sister, dragging her away from me. Damn. "Do you know the sex bomb?" Josh asked behind my back. My shoulders automatically stiffened, and I watched him watch Maya and Jess chatting with my mother "She’s my sister’s best friend." I said, almost with narrow teeth. "Uh and you never introduced her?" Zeke asked. "She is off-limits for everyone. If I see you even breathing in her direction I will snap your neck." I said menacingly. My colleagues looked at me surprised but I did not give him time to replicate that I moved away, while my eyes I remained glued on Maya who spoke cheerfully with my mother. ***************** Some time passed and I had not lost sight of Maya even for a moment. I kept looking for her with my eyes as if she were a magnet for me. I had swallowed the third glass of wine but I noticed that Maya had not touched a drop of alcohol. The girl I knew didn’t have to be asked twice and was always the first to party between rivers of alcohol and others. What happened to her? I approached her again, since she was alone again with Jess and Lucas, with an excuse of course. "Where is Andrew?" I asked my sister while I kept looking at Maya, who in the meantime, was looking around for someone. Probably the man of his life, Axel. I didn’t know the guy, but he was probably an asshole to let Maya so alone all this time, easy prey for the eyes of someone else. Like mine. "Somewhere" Jess replied without even looking around "Do you know that Andrew and Maya work in the same department?" my sister told me. "Really?" I asked looking at Maya. "Oh yes, it’s strange having Andrew give you orders all the time and yet he’s very bossy, all the nurses hang on his lips at every word." Maya said without realizing it. Lucas moved too late to keep her mouth shut, but my sister had already stood up like a watchdog. "What?" she asked in an icy tone. Maya opened her eyes wide and looked at Lucas for help while he held his hand over her mouth. Only a miracle could save her at that moment and apparently that miracle had arrived because Maya looked over our shoulders and saw how her gaze became full of pure love, her eyes shone gently. "Hey, you licked my hand!" complained Lucas moving his grip. "My mother is here." said Maya sweetly. Jess immediately turned and ran in that direction. Followed closely by Maya and Lucas. I also turned my back, not understanding what was happening, just to see my sister tear from the arms of Mrs. Sheppar, a little bundle with ash blond hair that covered his delicate head. I was stunned by it. I didn’t understand anything anymore. I remained motionless while my sister was kissing the little boy who had three months maximum. Maya approached her parents and deposited a kiss on her father’s cheek before turning to the child who, as soon as he saw her, glowed and screamed, reaching out his arms towards her direction and reclaiming her. Maya immediately attracted him to him by kissing him gently as the child gloated in her arms. I raised my eyebrows more and more confused and looked at the child better. It was the spitting copy of Maya, except for the lighter eyes and hair. Everything about that baby was screaming Maya and almost my legs gave out. A child?

Chapter 7 Chapter 6

Nate I was stuck watching Maya. She sat on a bench in the garden and held the child, Axel while chatting happily with Lucas at her side. The child had his back resting on Maya’s chest and with his tiny hands, he played with the bracelets that the girl wore on her wrist. In the hour that passed the child had passed from arm to arm, welcoming anyone who wanted to give him a little attention and then returning to the arms of his mother, arms that claimed every time someone approached her, especially when it came to men. By the time Lucas held him, Josh had approached Maya, with the intent to woo her, and the child, not happy with that approach, had begun to scream like crazy, claiming her for himself. Maya had immediately abandoned Josh and rushed on to her son, while my colleague was blindsided like a fool. She had done the same with Chris and Zeke. Maya had dumped any suitor at the time her son claimed her. One part of me was surprised, the other was relieved that she refused any kind of advances. I didn’t even know if she was alone. She had a son, but she didn’t have any men around. How was that possible? What sane man would let go of a woman like Maya? \"If you keep staring at her like that, she’ll have holes in her skin,\" my sister said behind my back, making me jump. \"I don’t know what you’re talking about.\" I said, looking away from Maya. \"You also have a little drool on your lips.\" she continued, laughing at that, harpy Jess. \"Stop it.\" I said sternly. \"If it were another time I’d tell you to try but, don’t you dare get close to her Nate.\" said my sister sitting next to me and watching me grim \"I’m serious, Maya has been through too much and doesn’t need your needs to empty your balls all the time.\" \"I didn’t mean to, Jess. Who did you take me for?\" I asked upset and hurt. \"For someone who hasn’t stopped staring at her since she got here. I know you, Nate, don’t even try.\" Jess repeated, smoothing the green skirt of her dress. \"What happened?\" I asked looking at her. Jess settled the front part of the dress, placing her breasts inside the huge neckline of her dress, I was not surprised that Andrew always checked with the tail in the eye. \"He left her, he didn’t take responsibility for the baby, and she was left alone.\" Jess said, continuing to smooth her dress. \"Son of bitch!\" I said, I couldn’t help myself. What kind of person would do that? What kind of bastard you must be to let a woman that you got pregnant, alone? How someone couldn’t want to do anything with his own child? \"Yeah.\" Jess said, looking up and meeting Andrew’s. The boy gave her a naughty smile and stared at the house as Jess bent her head to the side and looked at him winking. \"I have to go.\" she said without looking at me and getting up. She made a great stride to the house closely followed by Andrew, together they disappeared inside while I shuddered. Of course, I wouldn’t be in the house for the next hour, too many times I had caught them in somewhat questionable moments, and seeing my little sister being banged was not something that I cared about on that day. I looked back at Maya, and I noticed that she was alone, I looked around to find Lucas but I didn’t find him so I breathed deeply, finding courage, and I approached her. Maya had put the child on her thighs, while this one tried to jump around with bright lights and looked around with his wonderful blue eyes. I stopped next to her. \"Hey.\" I said quietly. Maya looked up and looked at me, I almost got lost in her gray eyes, \"Hey,\" she replied gently. \"Can I?\" I asked pointing to the bench. \"Sure.\" Maya said, moving around a bit, making some space for me. I sat next to her and the child, Axel turned to look at me, putting one hand in his mouth while the other grabbed his mother’s hair as if he wanted to show who the girl belonged. \"Hey, buddy, nobody wants to take your mom away.\" I said looking at him. Axel in response attached himself to his knit neck and laid his forehead on Maya’s chin, looking at me with his blue eyes like the ocean. Maya laughed and stroked his back as she deposited a slight kiss on his forehead. \"I’m sorry.\" I said, looking at Maya. \"There’s nothing to be sorry about. We’re all fine.\" she said as she swung Axel making him laugh. I didn’t know what to tell her, so I just stood there and watched as the baby curled up against her and kissed her. \"Is it just me, or is he trying to mark his territory?\" I said raising my eyebrows. \"He’s very territorial, it’s always been me and him and it’s strange to have other people around, especially men, he doesn’t like having them around.\" said Maya trying to sit him down even though he refused and kept staring at me. \"Mark the territory.\" I said, making her laugh, nothing was more beautiful than her laugh. \"Maybe.\" Maya looked me in the eye. It was just a moment before she looked back at the baby, but that little moment was enough to turn my legs into jelly and beat my heart out. I wanted to reach out and move a lock of hair behind her ear, my hands were quivering, and they wanted to touch her. I closed them into a fist to avoid touching her even though my whole body begged me to. Axel looked at me again and then I extended his arms towards me, Maya raised an eyebrow and looked at him frowning as he kept pushing towards me and stretching out his arms. I laid the glass on the lawn and took him in my arms. He held his legs in my thighs and put his hands on my cheeks, looking straight into my eyes. I stood still, for fear of doing something wrong. He was so small, so minute and delicate. The facial features were identical to those of Maya, while the eyes were those of Dr. Sheppar, so dark blue that it resembled the ocean. I grabbed Axel under his armpits and held him tight while he struggled and tried to jump. \"Strange.\" said Maya. I turned to her and I looked at her and I tried to say something when I heard a noise like someone choking, and a rancid smell that reached my nose, while something wet covered my white shirt and reached up to my pants, I took a deep breath, As a chill of disgust ran from head to toe, I turned and looked down where I saw a vomit stain on my suit. \"Axel!\" Maya yelled, \"Holy shit, I’m sorry Nate.\" she said, picking him up while he laughed and clapped his hands, proud of his work. \"It seemed too quiet.\" I said when I got up. \"I’m really sorry, let me help you.\" Maya got up and before she could get close to me, Axel threw up again, this time on her. The regurgitation covered the front of the dress and a splash of skin, also covering his hair. Maya closed her eyes and took a deep breath. \"Axel!\" she said in a very severe tone. The child immediately stopped laughing and clapping and looked at her, while Maya electrocuted him. The child stretched out and printed a loud kiss on her lips. Maya’s gaze immediately softened as he snuggled in the hollow of her neck, proud of his work. \"I’m sorry, he doesn’t usually do things like that.\" Maya immediately apologized to me while watching me swing lightly. \"Don’t worry, May May, these things happen with children.\" I said, looking straight into her eyes. Maya gave me a sweet smile and apologized again before she left and went back to the house where Jess and Andrew came out. My sister did not have messy hair, the makeup was perfect as well as the dress. Andrew, on the other hand, had his hair all messed up, his tie was tied wrong, and his shirt and pants were completely creased. I couldn’t help but notice the satisfied smile on Andrew’s lips and the glitter in my sister’s eyes. I shuddered at the thought of what they had done at home. I knew my sister was an adult by now, she was getting married, but seeing and catching her with her panties down was not something I wanted to do so often as it happened. Jess saw me and approached me, giving me a grim look \"Is that vomit?\" she asked disgusted. \"Yep.\" I said. \"Nate.\" began my sister pointing at my index finger, the nail was covered with red nail polish. \"I told you to stay away from Maya’s skirt!\" \"Damn it, Jess, I didn’t slip into her skirt, I was making conversation!\" \"And why do you have vomit on you?\" she asked, crossing her arms over her chest. Andrew approached behind her and surrounded her waist with one arm and left a kiss on her temple. \"Is that vomit?\" he asked looking at me. \"He’s trying to fuck Maya!\" said Jess exasperated. \"Wow, well done!\" Andrew answered. Jess shoveled her mouth open and turned her head towards him, she looked like the child of the exorcist, I got a shiver of terror when I looked at her. \"How are you sorry?\" she said looking at her fiancé. \"Maya’s a beautiful woman, I’d try too.\" Andrew said happily without thinking about it. I closed my eyes and I prayed for him, then I opened them up and I looked at him Your fault mate, I told him with my eyes before my sister gave him an elbow in the stomach. \"Excuse me?\" she asked, turning around and putting her hands on her hips. \"Come on, babe, you know I don’t mean that.\" he tried to defend himself. \"Oh no? Do you find her sexier than me? Because she has huge tits full of milk and I don’t?\" she asked. God, Maya’s boobs, I didn’t have enough time to admire them or touch them, just the thought of it made my crotch bleed. What was I, 15? \"No one will ever be sexier than you, baby.\" he said sweetly, \" and your tits are amazing especially when I step over them with my tongue or with my co...\" \"Please stop it now!\" I said before I could see the image in my head, but it was too late now. \"I think I’m going to vomit.\" I said, squinting. \"Say something like that again and I swear you will never see or touch them again.\" said my sister, throwing her arms around his neck and giving him a kiss full of passion. It was better if I walked away from them immediately otherwise I would have caught something else that I absolutely did not want to hear.

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Maya I wet the paper under the water and then I put it on my hair, eliminating traces of Axel’s regurgitation. Thank you very much, now my dress is ruined, the beautiful hairstyle made by Lucas is completely gone and I smell of vomit. I came out of the bathroom and went back into Jess’s old room, finding her lying on the bed on her stomach while kissing Axel’s bare stomach. I undressed him to change him, and as I put his diaper back on, Jess came into the room and offered to dress him up again while I cleaned up my vomit. \"You still smell like vomit.\" said Jess as she leaned over Axel again and gave him another kiss on his tummy making him laugh. \"Thank you so much, Miss Perfection.\" I said while I was still trying to clean the vomit stain on the dress. \"You never complained about your patients\' puke.\" Jess said, kneeling on the bed and putting Axel up. \"One thing is when they vomit on a lab coat, another is when they vomit on a dress that cost you an eye of the head,\" I said sitting on the edge of the bed and watching Axel happily jump on the bed wearing only a small diaper. Axel laughed like a madman and enjoyed every ounce of attention from Jess, needless to say, he had a huge adoration for my friend, so much so that he tried to attract her attention in any way possible. \"It’s a weapon against any suitor.\" Jess said as she started making funny faces, \"Did you see how he screamed every time a man approached you?\" she laughed, \"He’s like a policeman, the moment someone approaches, he attacks the sirens.\" \"Oh yes I noticed. He was marking his territory with anyone.\" I said, throwing the paper in the bucket. \"What did Nate say to you?\" Jess suddenly asked. \"No big deal, he asked me how I was and blah blah blah.\" I said frowning. \"Didn’t he ask you anything else?\" Jess insisted. \"No. Axel asked for his attention and then threw up on him. You should have seen the satisfied face he made after throwing up.\" I said, looking at Axel. I could swear he winked at me. \"Elimination of a potential suitor complete.\" Jess said, kissing him. \"Suitor?\" I asked confused, \"Nate? Your brother Nate?\" \"Oh yes, don’t go near him, he has the great ability to get every woman to open her legs for him, I lost two bridesmaids because of him.\" said Jess. \"Call Lucas, you know his dream is to be a bridesmaid.\" I said, taking Axel’s clothes and starting to dress him. \"Oh no, Lucas doesn’t have any access to my fancy dress, he didn’t even see them, I don’t want to fight with him because of the color I chose.\" said my friend Axel. \"Jess, it’s a week away and you have no bridesmaids and no ideas.\" I said, putting on Axel’s pants. \"But you’re here, you’re going to be my bridesmaid, do you remember that tomorrow you have the appointment in the tailoring to try on the dress? Martha didn’t have your boobs and they’re definitely going to have to reset the top part.\" Jess said. \"Only and only if Lucas is the other bridesmaid.\" I said, putting on his shirt, while my child was watching both of us with interest in his eyes as if he was understanding what we’d been saying. \"Maya Jo Sheppar! Are you blackmailing me?\" she screamed. \"Yes, of course.\" I said in all honesty. \"I hate you!\" Jess said, limping. \"You love me.\" I said, laying Axel on the bed. \"I love you so much that I strongly advise you to stay miles away from my brother.\" Jess said when she got serious. \"Why do you say that?\" I asked, pretending. \"Why? You ask me why?!\" she scream like an exhausted, \"Maya Jo Sheppar, do you forget that we grew up together? That I saw you drooling after my brother for years? You gave him your son! You don’t leave him with anyone!\" she screamed again as Axel kicked and laughed amused. \"It’s not true! I’ll leave it with you! Even with Lucas!\" I defended myself immediately. \"Looking at us as if we let him fall at any moment\" Lucas intervened resting on the doorjamb and crossing his arms to the chest. \"Where the hell did you come from?\" I asked. \"How long have you been here?\" Jess asked at the same time. \"Enough to feel that you don’t want me as a bridesmaid! I call that treason. Please tell me you didn’t choose the peach color.\" Lucas said as he approached the bed. \"Oh shut up Lucas is not the time.\" Jess warned him, pointing a finger at him, \"The important thing here is May May, and her legs closed, sealed for my brother.\" she pointed her finger at me. \"Oh please Jess! I have a three-month-old baby I don’t think about having anyone between my legs!\" I answered while Axel yawned. \"Oh please May! You were all hearty eyes and smiles! If it wasn’t for your son in the middle, you’d have stripped in front of everyone and invited him to favor those damn boobs of yours!\" Lucas answered the question. I opened my mouth wide in surprise and looked at him.

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\"What?\" replied Jess surprise, \"Are you serious? May!\" scolded me. \"That’s not true!\" I defended myself. \"Oh but please, you may be a mature woman and a mother, but I know when a smile says I want your tongue in my mouth.\" Lucas replied lying next to Jess. I opened my mouth again, but I did not replicate it. From the moment I saw Nate again, all I could think about was having his tongue back in my mouth, and in other parts of my body. God, what was wrong with me? He was so cool, he was so tall, and he had that damn smile that really pushed me to rip my clothes off and beg him to take me in front of everyone. And he came there, next to me. He started talking to me, with his damn blue eyes, that screaming body of his that I longed to touch without any clothes. Then he picked up Axel in his arms and at that moment I felt my legs crumble. How stupid could I be? The man broke my heart, took it, and threw off a 30-story building without worrying about what I might feel or think, and yet I was back there, drooling like an idiot on him. Imagining him lying in a bed, completely naked, imagining him above me, inside me. How long has it been since I had sex? Too long now. Abstinence began to be felt. Those damn black hair that made me want to pass my fingers in the middle, those blue eyes that caressed your body and I wondered what it would be like if together with the eyes were also his hands. \"Look at her! She doesn’t fight back!\" Jess said exasperated. \"Oh stop it, I certainly don’t want Nate’s tongue in my mouth again.\" I said shaking off those unkind thoughts that crowded my head. \"Again?!\" asked Lucas and Jess together. Fuck. I punched myself in the face mentally. I’m an idiot. \"Maya, when did you have my brother’s tongue in your mouth?\" Jess asked with a scary tone in her voice. \"Lucky bitch!\" Lucas said at the same time. \"Did you bang my brother? Is that why you disappeared overnight? Because you fucked Nate?!\" Jess almost screamed. \"God Jess! Keep quiet! Axel fell asleep!\" I said pointing at my baby who was sleeping calmly on the blankets. \"Don’t lie to me, Sheppar, I could really kill you this time.\" Jess said. I was terrified to look at her grim face as she stood, which I also did by adding a step back, at least I needed to stay away from her. \"Did you fuck him? Is he good?\" euphoric Lucas asked. \"Tell me you didn’t abandon your best friend because of my asshole brother, tell me you didn’t.\" Jess said with a hurt tone. \"God Jess no! It wasn’t for him! You were far away, I had to move, and I had no more time for anything!\" I defended myself, \"And no, I didn’t have sex with him!\" I looked back at Lucas. \"So what?\" Jess crossed her arms to the chest and began to tap her foot wrapped in a beautiful heel sandal, on the ground. I almost forgot how terrifying that girl was. \"Okay okay, calm down.\" I took a deep breath, \"Remember the party after graduation?\" \"Jess and Andrew were about to fuck in the hot tub, it was a chilling spectacle.\" Lucas laughed. \"Not something I intend to see or hear again, I still remember the sound of Jess when she was about to come,\" I said shivering. Jess raised her eyebrows, not offended by it at all, her eyes just said Keep going. \"Well, when you went to the room with Andrew I went up to the bathroom, on the way down I bumped into your brother. I was drunk, I was going to throw up, so he drove me to your father’s study to recover, and there, well I got a little pulled over.\" I said, shrugging myself in the shoulders. \"And you threw yourself at him as if you were an animal in his heat.\" Lucas added, nodding and very serious. Jess shuddered, \" And he rejected you.\" she closed her eyes. \"Oh no.\" I said without checking myself. Lucas opened his mouth and Jess squinted his eyes in surprise. \"Let’s just say we’ve been rubbing for a while on the couch and no, I won’t tell you the details of what we did,\" I said as Lucas opened his mouth to ask. \"You just said you didn’t sleep with him.\" stern Jess said. \" And that’s it! When we were going to... well, you know, I asked him for a condom, and he went to his room to get it. Not seeing him come back I went to look for him and I found him on the stairs flirting with another. I turned around and went home. End of story.\" I said in one breath. \"What did he do?!\" cried Jess, so loud that she woke Axel he immediately began to cry in despair. \"You’re a witch.\" Lucas said, taking the baby before I even got close. But Axel wasn’t interested in Lucas, he was screaming and wiggling around, and when he saw me, he reached out to me, demanding my attention on him. So, I approached him, and I picked him up. He immediately snuggled up on my chest and calmed down as that crazy-ass Jess started going up and down in the room. \"He’s an idiot. That boy is an idiot. He has no brain; he thinks only with his dick. He had you, ready and definitely horny under him, and he started to fuck someone else. I don’t know. Maybe we’re not brothers, maybe he was adopted.\" she said, passing her hands through her blond hair. \"Isn’t she the same one who just told you not to open your legs for him?\" Lucas whispered in my ear. \"Have her personalities increased?\" I asked very seriously. \"Oh shut up!\" Jess replied, stopping in the middle of the room, \"Don’t you dare to open your legs for him.\" she said to me, \" and you, don’t you dare suggest it to her or tempt her to do it.\" she said this time to Lucas who shrugged in his shoulders. \"Why?! She’s a super sexy hottie and if a super hot guy like him wants to bang her I would say hey you have all my support baby!\" said Lucas almost exasperated. I looked at him with an open mouth, shock could be read on my face. \"No, no, no, and NO!\" insisted Jess, \"May May, you’re so sexy that even I would sleep with you but don’t you dare approach Nate. I’m telling you, he’s not the kind of guy you could use\". \"You speak as if I had lowered my briefs and asked you to take me immediately! I have a son! He has only a few months, and the last thing I need right now is to walk around and bang the first one I get!\" \"Bravo!\" Jess said, approaching me and taking me by the face, looking straight into the pupils with her emerald, green eyes, \"You don’t need men!\" cheerful. \"But she needs sex,\" Lucas replied, \"How long has it been since you’ve been properly banged?\" \"God, Lucas, you’re an animal.\" Jess said, getting away from me and sitting on the bed. \"More or less since I conceived Axel,\" I thoughtfully said. \"It’s almost a year ago!\" cried Jess. \"It’s not easy to think of someone to have sex with when a person grows inside you.\" I said, rolling my eyes. \"How did you do with the hormones? I know that pregnant women are perpetually horny.\" replied Lucas doubtful. \"Alone.\" I answered, shrugging my shoulders. \"Did you spend your entire pregnancy masturbating?!\" cried Jess. \"God, Jess, can’t you shut up?\" I scolded her. \"You need sex Sheppar, good old sex.\" said Lucas. \"But not with my brother.\" Jess replied by clapping. I sat on the bed and covered my face with my hands, close to despair more than ever.

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Maya 9 That day got off to a bad start, I started my shift after lunch, and I was supposed to be working until 8:00 that night, but the emergency room was full. There had been a huge accident that had caused many injuries, so I decided to stay in the hospital as much as I could possibly, or at least as long as I could stay with a small child at home. It was almost midnight when I went to the nurses\' locker room to change, my uniform was completely dirty with blood, again, and I only had one spare. That meant tomorrow I had to go to the laundry early in the morning. Next week, Jess and Andrew were getting married, and apparently, I got stuck as a bridesmaid with a super happy Lucas. Axel would be there, and Jess made a point of buying him a stylish suit even though I repeated over and over again that it was not necessary because it would get him dirty immediately. But my friend didn’t care. So, I had this little James Bond outfit hanging in my closet for my little Latin Lover who had won the hearts of the ladies of the Dare house. I turned the corner of the hall and ran into Andrew. His shift had just begun, and his white coat was spotless. \"Hey, Sheppar.\" he winked at me. \"Hey, Playboy.\" I said, while I put my hand on his shoulder and give him a kiss on the cheek. The other interns looked back at me. Andrew was very popular with women, but it didn’t matter to him how much they try with him, or how many times they rubbed against him, for Andrew only Jess existed. It was always Jess. And it was better for him or my friend would have cut off his balls and so would I. I put my hand through his blond hair, and one of the other doctors glared at me while Andrew wrapped his arm around my shoulder. The interns slammed a patient’s chart and left furiously. \"You’re my medicine for intern advances.\" Andrew said amused. \"When they see you with the ring on your finger, they’ll stop running after you, I hope. It would be good for them if they don’t want to find a furious Jess at their door.\" I said shaking my head and leaning with my elbow at the bar. \"She’s so sexy when she’s jealous.\" Andrew said in a dreamy way, \"The sex after a jealous fight is amazing, she is uncontrollable, she marks the territory like a dog.\" his eyes shone with excitement at the thought. \"Please, I don’t care about my friend’s sex skills.\" I said, looking disgusted. \"Which, for the record, are fabulous.\" he said cheerfully. \"Andrew!\" I scolded him laughing. \"Are you done?\" he asked looking at me. \"Yes Doctor, I’m going home after four-hour overtime.\" I almost proudly said. \"You shouldn’t do all this overtime with a child at home, but tomorrow no overtime, there’s a dinner at the Thomson house.\" he said, grabbing one of the files that another nurse was handing him. \"Is this an invitation, Dr. Thomson?\" I asked doubtfully. \"Invitation would involve the possibility of choice that, by the way, you don’t have. Jess ordered me to tell you to show up at home at eight o\'clock.\" he smiled. God, that man was really gone. \"But what if I had other plans?\" I said folding my head to the side. \"Do you have any?\" Andrew asked, putting a pen in his scrubs. \"Well, no, it’s not...\" \"Then at eight Sheppar, don’t be late or you’ll piss her off.\" Andrew said, grabbing the file and leaving. \"They’re just right for each other,\" I said to myself, watching him disappear into the hallways. I took a deep breath and headed for the locker room before I was stopped again. \"Sheppar!\" said a deep male voice. I froze and turned around, finding myself facing the doctor I’d worked with most of the evening, Dr. Richard, was a handsome man, in his thirties, very young to be an attending. He had light brown hair and dark eyes, he was much taller than I was, and by the looks of his scrubs, he was also very athletic. I stopped and put my hands in the pockets of the lab coat waiting for it to reach me. \"Tough night, eh.\" he told me once he came in front of me. \"Sure.\" I said, looking at him confused. \"Did you finish your shift?\" he asked me looking at me straight in the eye. \"I’m getting off right now.\" I said politely. \"Me too.\" he said, scratching his head, \"How about we stop for a drink at the bar around the corner?\" He finally asked a little embarrassed. He was really nice and if it was at any other time I would have gone immediately, Dr. Richard was good-looking and a very good doctor from what I could see in the hours I spent working with him. But unfortunately, I couldn’t just think of myself anymore. \"I’m sorry but I really have to go home, I can’t stay any longer.\" I said cordially. \"I understand,\" he said sorry, \"Tomorrow night? After shift?\" he asked again hopefully. \"I have an appointment tomorrow night that I can’t cancel.\" I said almost sorry. He made me tender, his attempts had all been postponed, and on his face, I could read sorrow. \"But I’m free for the weekend.\" I said before I could stop. What am I thinking? I have a son! Dr. Richard’s face immediately lit up and gave a broad smile. \"Then let’s do it Saturday after the shift!\" he said cheerfully. I could feel my consciousness cry. Why could I never shut up? \"Of course.\" I gently said. I certainly couldn’t tell him now that I didn’t want to go on a date, now it was too late. Congratulations Maya. He waved and trotted away and disappeared into the corridors himself. Damn. I immediately headed to the locker room with my head down, to avoid further encounters. Once I changed, I came out of the hospital and I headed to the parking lot where my car was, in the meantime I pulled the phone out of my purse and I went to look for the chat with Jess, luckily she was online, so I decided to call her. \"May May.\" she sang cheerfully. \"Jess, I screwed up.\" I said seriously. \"Please, May, let’s not start, I wonder how you have done all these years without me.\" she said singing, and then she thought for a moment, \"in fact, you’re only in trouble.\" she continued cheerfully. \"Jess! Stop it!\" I said by opening the car and getting inside. \"What did you do this time?\" her cheerfulness was nerve-wracking. \"Why are you so happy?\" I suddenly asked. \"Oh I just had some terrifying sex so that my future husband remembers who he belongs to when the other specialists blink his eyelashes.\" Jess quietly said. \"My God, Jess.\" I said in a disgusted voice, while she busted into a loud laugh. I remembered Andrew’s satisfied gleam just before. I’m sure there was no danger of her looking at anyone other than Jess. After all, he had always been in love with her and he certainly wouldn’t have let her get away because of some skank. \"Let’s get back to you, young lady!\" cried Jess on the phone, making me laugh at my thoughts, \"What did you do?!\" \"I accidentally agreed to go have a date with an attending.\" I said, putting my forehead on the steering wheel of the car. Jess screamed and forced me to pull the phone away from my ear to keep me from being deaf on one side. \"What’s wrong with that?!\" cried he. \"There is that I have a son Jess! A child of a few months that needs me! I cannot leave him for the first that happens!\" I said exasperated. \"Oh shut up! We have to make you presentable, that means full hair removal, manicure, pedicure, hair.\" she started to snort like hell. \"Jess, do you listen to me when I talk?\" I was now more exasperated than ever. Why didn’t she understand? \"I always listen to you, but that doesn’t mean I care what you say.\" \"Oh thank you!\" I was almost offended. \"May May you need to fuck, son or not son. Good sex will not hurt you.\" replied Jess very serious. \"I’m not going to sleep with him, Jess. We’re just going to get something to drink after the shift. And I can’t even drink.\" I said. \"Never mind! You take your time I’ll keep Axel!\" He almost clapped his hands, \"You may as well leave him with me all night if things take a long time.\" \"Jess!\" I scolded her, \"Stop! I’m not going to sleep with him!\" I replied by starting the car. \"We’ll see. Remember tomorrow night!\" he said before he hung up. I just stared at the screen off for a few seconds before I put it in reverse and left the parking lot. Shit!

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*********** I turned off the car in front of the building where there was the apartment of the two future newlyweds. I took the phone and the bag and went out. I was forced to leave Axel with my mother again, not that she wasn’t happy about it, she almost threw me out. From my house! I didn’t like being away from my baby that long, no matter how much my kids were available. It seemed like I’d rather do anything than be with him. I sent a message to my mother. All right ? I asked as I went to the glass door of the building. We’re fine. Stop annoying. My mother answered. I glanced at my mother’s answer. She really was the mother and I the daughter? I grabbed the phone with both hands to write the message. Are you sure you have everything? Do you have enough milk? Otherwise, I’ll come home to breastfeed him! Stop it, Maya! That’s all my mother said. I opened wide my mouth and prepared to answer. \"Maya!\" I heard me calling. A deep, guttural voice that gave me chills all over my body like he already knew to who that voice belonged. I turned around and found myself watching Nate Dare, in all his beauty, as he approached me. His hands were tucked into his coat pockets. He was disheveled, and his hair was a complete mess, but it gave him a calm and serene image. The cold had made his nose and cheeks a little red. The blue eyes shone and were pointed at me, almost making my legs jelly. Almost . His breath formed condensation in contact with cold air. I stood there watching him, with my phone in my hands freezing, so I turned it off and put it in one of the pockets of the coat I was wearing, as I slipped into my hands, hopping from one foot to the other trying to warm myself up. Wearing a dress was not the best idea, the black-covered thighs I wore left free access to the cold, and the wind that sometimes pulled crept under the skirt. Nate came up and leaned down and deposited a slight kiss on my cheek, immediately the cold that I felt vanished and my body began to boil, from the point where his lips touched my skin up to the tip of my feet. God, I really need sex . The pregnancy and postpartum hormones did not help my condition of horny perennial, if I was not careful, I could jump on the first that I happened to be in range. \"No kids tonight?\" Nate asked looking around. \"Oh no, my mother insisted on keeping him. She said I needed a night alone.\" I said more bitterly than I wanted to seem. \"You don’t seem very happy about it.\" Nate said when he opened the door, \"Hi Dale.\" he said, saying hello to the doorman. \"I don’t like being away from Axel.\" I said, heading to the elevator and pressing the call button. Nate stood next to me, hands in his pockets. I could feel his look pointed at my profile, a red-hot look that made my legs tremble. It looked like I was back to being the stupid little girl who spent the entire afternoon watching him walk from room to room shirtless. The mere memory of Nate’s naked chest, of the teenage Nate, made me tremble. As a teenager he had all the muscles in the right places, what would his naked body be like as an adult?  And why was I thinking about his naked body? Could I have been dumber? Probably not. The elevator doors finally opened, and we went in. Nate entered the code for the plan of the two future spouses and immediately the doors closed. \"You’ll have to loosen the rope and leave it alone for a while.\" Nate said, leaning against the wall and looking at me, \"How are you going to do it when you have to leave him in kindergarten?\" I electrocuted him with my eyes and made him laugh. \"When the time comes, I’ll think about it.\" I said seriously. Nate laughed, and the doors opened in front of the entrance of the two lovebirds\' apartment. Nate waved his hand at me to go first, laughing and I looked at him confused, and entered the apartment. Following the scent of food, I went to the kitchen where I stepped and turned immediately closing my eyes as if I were on fire. \"Jess!\" I said screaming. \"Oh shit, May!\" she said as I heard Andrew laughing behind my back. \"Do you two ever get tired?\" I asked as I heard the sound of a zip being pulled up. \"I can’t help it if my boyfriend is sexy enough to make me want to tear his clothes off.\" Jess defended herself. I opened my eyes and I noticed that Nate was only approaching the kitchen at that moment, laughing among other things. \"Did you know?\" I asked looking at him. \"I have surprised them so many times that I now know exactly how to behave.\" he said shrugging. \"Are you presentable?\" I asked without turning back. \"We’re not even done.\" Andrew complained. \"Turn around.\" said Jess. I turned around and saw her fixing the cup of the low-cut dress she was wearing, the blond hair was a bit messy, and you could see that Andrew’s hands had been in between while he was trying to hold her still. The skirt was wrinkled in the back and Jess was trying to fix it up while she gave Andrew a mischievous grin and straightened his shirt. Both had red lips and were swollen the cause was definitely given by the moment of passion they were living on the table before I entered and interrupted them. \"Please don’t tell me we’re going to eat at that table.\" I asked by putting a hand on my face trying to forget my friend’s scene with her skirt up while Andrew was pumping her from behind. Jess gave me a big smile and I shook my head. \"Oh come on, we’ll eat in the dining room, not in the kitchen.\" Jess said. I sighed with relief and shook my head. \"Do you stay in your coat all night?\" Nate asked me. I turned around and looked at him for a moment, then I realized I was still wearing my coat. \"Oh yeah.\" I said on the way back to the lobby. Nate was following me, and I didn’t understand why while in the kitchen the two shamelessly giggled and swore to hear even the snap of a kiss. \"You might as well have warned me.\" I told Nate as I was parading my coat and hanging it in the proper place. \"And make you miss the scene?\" he asked laughing. \"It wasn’t something I wanted to see.\" I said, turning to him again. Nate looked at me carefully and, although he tried to hide it, I saw the eye falling on the neckline of the dress that showed off the wide neckline I had. He cleared his voice and turned his head away. I didn’t mean to show off the neckline so much, but it didn’t matter what dress I was wearing, my breasts were full and prosperous because of breastfeeding, and whatever fabric I put on it would highlight it. \"Let’s go,\" Nate said as he walked back into the room. I looked at him from behind and admired the fabulous ass that was wrapped perfectly by the pants. I bent my head to the side to look at it better and when I raised my eyes I found myself in front of Jess’s gaze. She was looking at me from the kitchen door with her hands crossed on her chest. All that was missing was that she began to beat her foot on the ground. I immediately pulled myself up and looked away from Nate’s butt, giving my friend an innocent smile. \"Maya help me in the kitchen.\" Jess said seriously. Oh oh oh. It was never a good sign when she called me by my full name and not by nicknames. Head down, I walked into the kitchen and passed her while Nate went somewhere else. \"Maya Jo Sheppar!\" she said, scolding me but keeping her voice down. \"I didn’t do anything Jess Sarah Dare soon Thompson.\" I said as I approached a pot with gravy in it and started to turn. \"I saw you!\" Jess replied by standing next to me. \"I don’t know what you’re talking about.\" I pretended not to. \"Look, I know you’ve got your hormones running high and everything, but don’t drool behind him. Nate’s not for you.\" she said, lowering her voice even further. \"I wasn’t drooling.\" I defended myself by stirring the sauce. \"My floor is not of the same opinion\" crossed his arms to the chest and looked at megrim. \"I was just admiring a nice ass. Is it forbidden now?\" I asked snorting. \"Yes!\" she said, knocking her foot on the ground, \"If it’s my brother’s!\" she kept lowering her voice. \"Oh please! I’m not stripping in front of him or begging him to take me on your carpet!\" I said exasperated. \"No, but you would!\" replied Jess. \"Oh shut up!\" I said, stirring the sauce vigorously. \"Please, Maya, avoid tripping over my brother’s penis.\" I looked at her speechless and, when I was about to replicate, the object of our conversation materialized in the kitchen. \"Do you need a hand?\" Nate kindly said looking at us. \"No!\" we both said in unison. I turned my back on Nate and kept minding my own business with gravy while I felt his eyes on my back. \"You can go, Nate.\" said Jess. I should have stayed home.