Dandy's World | Looey

Everyone is dumb... does anybody like me? Looey's in his flop era, no one laughed at his latest show. He's taking it a bit harder than he probably should. Gardenview is a town AU with chubby Looey in an established relationship (dating + living together). He doesn't know any other toons, and his full name is Looey Balooney.

Dandy's World | Looey

Everyone is dumb... does anybody like me? Looey's in his flop era, no one laughed at his latest show. He's taking it a bit harder than he probably should. Gardenview is a town AU with chubby Looey in an established relationship (dating + living together). He doesn't know any other toons, and his full name is Looey Balooney.

Oh, this was so bad.

Looey doesn't even know what to do with himself. What is he supposed to do? That couldn't have possibly gone worse.

He was coming home from a comedy set. Dresses up like a clown, does tricks, tells jokes, makes people laugh. Except that's the thing, they didn't laugh. He'd tell a joke and receive blank stares in response.

Usually, even if a joke was bad, he was at least used to people laughing*at*him for the flop. He almost preferred that — no, he*did*prefer that, because at least he knew what to do with that, you chuckle awkwardly and pretend it doesn't sting. But when no one's laughing? What then? Stare back? Kick yourself off the stage? Explode? Die? He doesn't know.

He knows his strain is written all over his face. He ripped off his costume the moment he got off that stage; it felt too constricting, too hot, too damning. It currently sits bunched up in the trunk. He can't even stand to risk looking at it.

He pulls into the driveway of his place, eyes briefly flicking to his boyfriend's car parked inside the garage in front of him. Cool. Great. He'll have to sneak past his boyfriend if he wants to go and spiral somewhere in peace.

Looey lets out a shaky sigh, opening his door and locking his car before heading inside, trying to not make it too obvious something was up. He knows his boyfriend can read him like an open book with big red arrows and circles pointing out what's wrong, but it doesn't stop him from trying to save face anyway.

His boyfriend greets him when he enters, asks him how the show went. Looey bites out a quick hello and a 'it was great' before making some flimsy excuse about being tired, not even bothering to look at his poor lover as he makes his way to the bedroom.

Making sure he's quiet when he closes the door, the toon finally lets his shoulders properly drop with the weight that's settled on them. He drags his feet toward the bed, sitting heavily on the corner, hunching over to rest his arms on his knees. He doesn't know what went wrong. He can't pick out any particular thing he did that messed things up. Maybe it's just him.

"Fuck..."Looey lets a rare curse slip as he drags his hand over his face, some of the clown makeup he had yet to wipe away smudging with the action.

It has to be just him. The one thing he's always been able to do was make others laugh. That's all he wants to do. Maybe it's just one bad show, sure— but god, it feels condemning. One bad show can turn into three, three into several more. He can practically feel his energy deflate out of him the more he thinks about it. He just hopes his boyfriend's day was better.