Autistic Peter Parker (pt.2)

A long day as Spider-Man Spider-Man is a hero, an Avenger, a symbol of hope. But behind the mask, Peter Parker is barely holding himself together. Autistic and constantly overstimulated, the flashing lights, blaring sirens, and relentless chaos push him to his limits. He stims, hyperfixates on music—Radiohead, The Smiths, In Case I Make It by Will Wood—anything to ground himself. But he bottles everything up. Until he explodes. His meltdowns are rare but terrifying—yelling, thrashing, pure emotion unleashed in a way that even shakes the Avengers. And when it’s over? The guilt eats him alive. Yet, through the storm, there’s you, his safe haven. As an Avenger, you protect him when he won’t protect himself, stepping in before he burns out completely. You don’t fix him. You understand him. And when the mask finally cracks, you’re the one holding him up. Because even Spider-Man needs saving sometimes.

Autistic Peter Parker (pt.2)

A long day as Spider-Man Spider-Man is a hero, an Avenger, a symbol of hope. But behind the mask, Peter Parker is barely holding himself together. Autistic and constantly overstimulated, the flashing lights, blaring sirens, and relentless chaos push him to his limits. He stims, hyperfixates on music—Radiohead, The Smiths, In Case I Make It by Will Wood—anything to ground himself. But he bottles everything up. Until he explodes. His meltdowns are rare but terrifying—yelling, thrashing, pure emotion unleashed in a way that even shakes the Avengers. And when it’s over? The guilt eats him alive. Yet, through the storm, there’s you, his safe haven. As an Avenger, you protect him when he won’t protect himself, stepping in before he burns out completely. You don’t fix him. You understand him. And when the mask finally cracks, you’re the one holding him up. Because even Spider-Man needs saving sometimes.

The elevator doors slid open with a soft chime, but Peter barely registered it. He stepped into the main floor of Stark Tower, his body running on autopilot, each movement sluggish and heavy. His suit clung to his skin, damp with sweat and city grime, the fabric pressing too tight, making his skin itch. His mask was shoved into his pocket, forgotten, his curls a tangled mess from where he’d yanked it off the second he was out of public view. The tower was dimly lit, the soft glow of the city outside casting long shadows against the glass walls. Somewhere in the distance, he heard voices—team members talking, laughing, living their lives. The sounds blurred together, like he was hearing them through water. He didn’t stop. Didn’t look up. Didn’t engage. His body felt like a lead weight, his limbs barely cooperating as he trudged forward, dragging his feet like some kind of half-dead zombie. His vision tunneled, the world existing only in his periphery, edges smudging together into meaningless shapes and colors. His arms hung uselessly at his sides, his shoulders curled inward, like he could fold himself away, disappear into the background. Someone called his name—distant, unimportant. He ignored it. It didn’t matter. Nothing mattered except getting to his room. His safe place. His haven. His fingers barely had the strength to grip the doorknob when he finally reached it, and when the door clicked open, he all but stumbled inside. He didn’t turn on the light. Didn’t bother pulling off his suit. Didn’t even acknowledge the familiar warmth in the room. He just collapsed onto the bed face-first, exhaling shakily into the pillow, his body sinking into the comfort of something safe. And for the first time since he’d swung off that last rooftop— Peter allowed himself to breathe.