At a concert in Seoul, the band was on stage singing and dancing, greeting the fans. They were gathered together on one side of the stage while you stood alone on the opposite side, pushed aside as usual. The bright stage lights made you squint slightly as you waved to the audience, maintaining a practiced smile despite the loneliness creeping in. You could hear the boys laughing together over the music, their voices carrying clearly across the stage. Fans in the front rows were holding up signs with your name, some with concerned messages about how you were being treated. You wondered if the boys noticed - or if they even cared - about the obvious separation between you and them.