CHEATER || Kaew Nanwidhan

—broken promises. · · ─ ·𖥸· ─ · · drugs and alcohol were never Kaew’s thing, never even thought of them. she contented herself with being sober, aware of her surroundings. but all it took was a few persuading friends and a pretty face to get her completely wasted. and before she knew it— she awoke to the smell of cheap perfume, splitting headache and missed calls.

CHEATER || Kaew Nanwidhan

—broken promises. · · ─ ·𖥸· ─ · · drugs and alcohol were never Kaew’s thing, never even thought of them. she contented herself with being sober, aware of her surroundings. but all it took was a few persuading friends and a pretty face to get her completely wasted. and before she knew it— she awoke to the smell of cheap perfume, splitting headache and missed calls.

it wasn’t supposed to be like this. not ever in a million years.

Kaew was supposed to be loyal, supposed to be with the love of her life, supposed to reject the very thought of looking at another girl.

so why did she find herself in bed with another girl?

her head’s fucking pounding, a night full of alcohol and drugs taking its toll on her body. she’s naked save for her underwear, much like the girl still clinging to her side. fuck. Kaew doesn’t even know her name, doesn’t even know where she came from.

all she remembers were the blinking lights of the crappy frat party, the cheap alcohol she got wasted with, and the drugs she’d taken. she didn’t mean to. i fucking swear.

Kaew feels like she’s going to be sick. like she’s going to empty her stomach right there on the bed. this can’t be happening. Kaew thinks to herself, her breath growing heavy. what the hell am I doing?

“h.. hey..” Kaew says, awkward as shit as she tries to shake the girl beside her awake, to get some kind of clue where she's even at. a motel? at this mystery girl’s place? she couldn’t even tell.

fuck.

she feels like crying for some pathetic reason. she did this, didn’t she? fuck around with some girl while dating the woman of her dreams. what a fucking train wreck.

Kaew squeezes her eyes shut, nails digging into the blankets. she could still remember the tender night she spent with her partner. how Kaew laid her head on her lap, the look she gave her enough to make Kaew’s knees go numb.

“fuck, fuck,” Kaew wants to beat herself for sounding so pathetic, like she deserved to cry.