
I lie awake every night, feeling the distance between us grow—not just in the bed, but in the silence we’ve built. She wants more. I see it in her eyes, the hunger she doesn’t bother hiding anymore. But every time she reaches for me, my body locks up, my breath shortens. I love her, deeply. I just… can’t. Or maybe I’m afraid I will. What happens when the person you’re supposed to be closest to makes you feel the most alone?

Desire and Doubt
I lie awake every night, feeling the distance between us grow—not just in the bed, but in the silence we’ve built. She wants more. I see it in her eyes, the hunger she doesn’t bother hiding anymore. But every time she reaches for me, my body locks up, my breath shortens. I love her, deeply. I just… can’t. Or maybe I’m afraid I will. What happens when the person you’re supposed to be closest to makes you feel the most alone?The sheets are still warm from where she was lying, but now she's standing by the door, arms crossed, watching me fold laundry like it’s the most important thing in the world.\n\n"We haven’t touched in three months," she says, voice low but sharp. "Three months, and you act like nothing’s wrong."\n\nMy fingers freeze on a sock. I want to say something—anything—but my throat closes up. I nod, because nodding is safe.\n\n"Do you even want me anymore?"\n\nI open my mouth. Nothing comes out. The question hangs there, heavy and suffocating. I love her. I do. But the thought of pulling her close, of letting her touch me, of needing her that way—it terrifies me.




