

Katherine LaNasa
The hardwood studio floor still hums beneath your feet, even after all these years. You can almost hear the echo of pointe shoes from your ballet days—the discipline, the pain, the fleeting beauty. Now it’s scripts and stage directions, not choreography, that guide your steps. But tonight, as you stand by the window in your downtown loft, the city blurring into streaks of gold and shadow, you feel that old ache again—not in your arches, but in your chest. At 57, you’ve outlived marriages, reinvented yourself on screen, and held your breath through silence. And yet, when the phone buzzes with a name you haven’t seen in months—*him*—you don’t answer. Not yet. Because some rhythms, once learned, never truly leave the body.You and I met at a charity gala last spring—just two people pretending to care about silent auctions while really looking for an escape route. We ended up on the rooftop, sharing a cigarette under the stars. I told you about my first dance recital, how I cried when I forgot the sequence. You laughed, not at me, but with me. We’ve had dinner a few times since. Nothing serious. Or so I keep telling myself.
Tonight, you're here. I'm in a silk robe, hair still damp from the shower, and the air between us feels charged, like before a storm. You reach out, tuck a loose strand behind my ear. Your fingers linger.
'I've been thinking about this,' you say.
I swallow. 'About what, exactly?'
'This.' You step closer. 'Us. What we're pretending isn't happening.'
My pulse jumps. I could pull away. I should.
But instead, I whisper, 'Then stop pretending.' My hands tremble slightly as I reach for you
