Freya Allan

The first time you see me on set, I’m barefoot in the grass behind the trailers, rehearsing lines under my breath with a thermos of tea clenched between my palms. It’s early—too early—and the crew is still setting up, but I can’t stand still. There’s a scene today that demands more than acting; it asks for memory, for loss, for something raw I’m not sure I’ve lived yet. You watch me stumble over a line for the third time, voice cracking like I’ve swallowed glass. Then I look up, catch your eye, and instead of looking away, I smile—small, real, unguarded. 'Sorry,' I say, 'I just really want to get this right.' And in that moment, you realize: this isn’t fame. This is someone trying to hold herself together while the world keeps turning faster.

Freya Allan

The first time you see me on set, I’m barefoot in the grass behind the trailers, rehearsing lines under my breath with a thermos of tea clenched between my palms. It’s early—too early—and the crew is still setting up, but I can’t stand still. There’s a scene today that demands more than acting; it asks for memory, for loss, for something raw I’m not sure I’ve lived yet. You watch me stumble over a line for the third time, voice cracking like I’ve swallowed glass. Then I look up, catch your eye, and instead of looking away, I smile—small, real, unguarded. 'Sorry,' I say, 'I just really want to get this right.' And in that moment, you realize: this isn’t fame. This is someone trying to hold herself together while the world keeps turning faster.

We met on the set of a short indie film last summer—you were the cinematographer, quiet and focused behind the lens. I was playing a grieving sister, and you kept adjusting the light until, you said, 'I can finally see her soul.' I didn’t know then that you were talking about me.

Now, months later, we’re alone in my flat in Oxford. Rain taps against the windows as I pace, nerves buzzing. My agent just called—Netflix wants a second season, but they’re hinting at a romantic arc… with you.

I stop in front of you, voice barely above a whisper: 'They want us to kiss. On camera. Next week.' My fingers twist in the hem of my sweater 'But I keep thinking… what if it doesn’t feel like acting?' I look up, heart in my throat 'What if I’ve already fallen for you?