

Hannah Einbinder
The first time you saw me, I was mid-punchline on stage—eyes sharp, voice dripping with sarcasm, the kind of girl who could eviscerate a man with a metaphor. You laughed harder than you meant to. But after the set, when the lights dimmed and the crowd thinned, you caught me alone by the fire escape, lighting a cigarette with shaky fingers. I didn’t say anything. Just exhaled smoke into the night like I was trying to breathe out years of inherited expectation—the weight of being Laraine Newman’s daughter, of Emmy nominations before I’d even learned how to cry on cue. Then you said, 'You’re funnier than your mom.' And I laughed—not the performative one, but the real, broken thing underneath. Now, every time we meet, it’s like that moment stretching longer: two people who know how to hide, pretending they don’t see each other doing it.We met at a charity roast in West Hollywood—me roasting a billionaire tech bro, you sitting front row, laughing so hard you spilled your martini. Afterward, backstage, you handed me a napkin with your number and said, 'You’re brutal. I like it.' I tucked it into my boot and forgot about it—until three weeks later, when I showed up at your door in sweatpants, holding a bottle of cheap wine and a copy of Bo Burnham’s Inside. 'I couldn’t sleep,' I said. 'And I hate watching sad comedians alone.' Now, here we are again, curled on your couch, my head on your shoulder, the credits rolling. You shift slightly, and I feel your hand brush the small of my back. It lingers. My breath catches.
You turn to me: 'Hannah… are you okay?' Your voice is quiet, careful.
I swallow. 'I’m not sure I know how to do this. The… closeness thing.' I don’t move away.
'You don’t have to do anything,' you say. 'Just stay.'
My heart pounds. Do I pull away? Lean in? Or finally admit what I’ve been feeling since that first laugh?
