Chapter 1 Chapter One: The Beginning

DAWN The alarm rings and the students break out, shouting and laughter filling the room. The teacher sighs before walking out of the class and I close my book. Grabbing my textbooks from the seat next to me and raising up; I make my way out of class. It's already lunchtime and of course, the hallway is filled with students who are more than eager to get out of class, even more, eager to get to the cafeteria and among those students is me, dragging my feet to my locker. I breathe out in relief when I finally make it to my locker without having to fight my way through. I drop my books in there and bring out a novel, shutting the locker back and turning to see Kira. I jump back in fear and she chuckles, shaking her head at my expression of course and I scowl at her. "That wasn't funny. You scared me! " I snap at her and she chuckles, laughing and throwing her head in the back. Of course, she finds this funny. She practically finds everything weird funny. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to... Wanted to surprise you. " She says amidst laughter and I roll my eyes before making my way down the hallway and she's trailing behind me. I know she would, she always does. "Where are you going again? The cafeteria is that way. " She says and I shake my head, rolling my eyes once again. A habit that I've always grown used to now. "I'm not going to the cafeteria. I'm going to the garden, I need to finish this. " I wave the novel between her face and the small space between us. She rolls her eyes before grabbing my hand, pulling me along. "You are not going to that garden again! You are always going there, Live your life a little. Your friends want to spend time with you. " She rambles on as we reach the entrance of the cafeteria and I sigh before looking back at her. She smiles at me and nods her head towards the door, I shake my head and open the door, walking in. I guess I could just read it while I eat. "Hey, guys. " Kira grins as we both take a seat around the group and I drop my tray of chips and smoothie on the table. "Wow, Dawn. I feel like it's been ages since I have seen you in here. " Jason smiles at me and I return it before staring down at my food. I have a group of friends and we are ten in number. We have Jason, Ian, Bryan, Lily, Kira, Ella, Carly. Nora. Nick and me. We have all been friends since third grade and we pull our friendship up to here. I used to spend most of my time with my friends but after what happened, I just want to always be alone but that doesn't seem to always work because of Kira of course. "That's because it's been practically ages since we have seen her. She hasn't been showing up much here after what happened. I hope you're fine though." Lily stares at me and I give her a small smile. "I'm fine. I had things to do, I'm sorry I haven't been able to show up here. " I smile and they all nod while I smile again. The kind of smile that says I'm alright even though I'm not. I don't think I will ever be alright again. I grab a chip and squeeze it in my mouth before opening the novel. Novels are something that I love. Romance novels in specific cause they keep me off from thinking about my terrible life. Recently terrible life. "Oh, that's right! I almost forget, we are all going clubbing tonight. I feel like we should go have some fun. What do you all think? " Nora grins from where she's sitting and I almost roll my eyes. She's the kind that loves having fun... A lot more than she loves puppies. "I think it would be great, it's our last year of high school, we should do something fun more often and oh, dawn. You're coming. " Kira turns to me and I shake my head. I will rather stay in my room and watch the paint dry than do that. Clubbing. "No, I'm not. Thanks for asking though." I shake my head and she chuckles. The kind of chuckle that tells her she has something up her sleeves. "I wasn't asking babe, I was telling you that you're gonna come. ""No, I'm not. " I shake my head at her and she raises her brows at me, almost as if she's daring me to say that again. "You have to go or I will tell Matt that you have a crush on him " My eyes widen immediately. "Are you insane? You can't do that! Don't! " I start raising my voice, not caring about the eyes that turn to me. She must be nuts if she tries telling Matt that I have a crush on him. Matt is like the school bad boy and he's in the soccer team also but he has a girlfriend. A hot girlfriend that doesn't like me too much and I'm just... Me. Ugly, quiet, and lonely Dawn. Telling him will create lots of trouble for me which I don't want. "Fine then, I won't . But you're coming. " She grabs a chip from mine and I turn to look at the others who all have a grin plaster across their face. They must be kidding me! "Oh, that's him coming. Maybe I should just go.... " She starts standing up when I go silent and I quickly pull her back. "No, sit. I will go. " I growl and she chuckles before sitting down, winking at me. "That's more like it. We are going to have the best fun of our lives…" She practically squeals next to me and I sigh before letting out a long drag of my breath and staring at the novel that's still in my hand as my friends discuss the fun they are going to have while I take utmost pleasure in zoning out. "God! I can't wait for it, I feel like it's been so long that we have ever had fun together. ""Yeah, especially Dawn. I'm just glad she's coming, right Dawn?" I raise my head when I hear my name being called before smiling at Nora. "Do I have a choice?" And once again, Kira squeals next to me. And that's it. My friend practically dragged me to go clubbing but it was for this one night and that's all.

Chapter 2 Chapter Two: Letting Loose

DAWN. "No Dawn. I'm not gonna allow you to wear a Jean and tank top to clubbing, do you think we are going to the movies or something? You are putting on a dress and that's it! " Kira yells as she paces across my room and opens my closet, staring at my clothes to look for something I could wear to the club. I let out a soft but frustrated sigh as I look down at myself and I see nothing bad in what I'm wearing. It's ripped Jean which is like one of the few Jeans I have and the tank top I'm wearing has a jacket over it. It isn't so bad but Kira sees something wrong in wearing this to a club. She insists that I wear a dress, even though I would prefer wearing what I'm in already. I prefer clothing that I am more comfortable in and with this, I'm very comfortable but of course, my best friend thinks it's boring. Sometimes, I wonder how the hell we even managed to tolerate each other for so long and keep the friendship going. We are very opposite, like two sides of a coin, right from the very start we have been very different. She's the kind that prefers all these things, going outing with friends and living life to the fullest. It isn't like I didn't like it either but I prefer indoor outings to outdoor but now, I don't think I want either. "I don't think it's necessary, it's just to have fun and get out of there. " I groan frustratingly. I have planned to just scale through most of the night, if Kira let me cause she's always on my neck and I know she doesn't mean that in a bad way. A few of my novels are inside my bag in case I get bored there and I am taking my iPad with me also. They can have all the fun they want and I will do my thing. As long as my presence is enough. "I repeat girl, you're not wearing that to the club. I'm not gonna allow you to look like some sort of a church nun when you're not. " She speaks from the closet and I sigh before staring at the wall and watching her rummage through my closet. She finally comes back and I stare at the dress she's holding. It's a gold dress and it is stoned across its every fibre. It's a dress mom got me for my fifteenth birthday party. I can still remember clearly the huge grin that was plastered across her face when I had flushed and told her I love it, immediately she showed me the dress. I can remember the proud grin across her face when she saw me in it and I can still remember the way she had clutched me tightly to her chest and placed a soft kiss on my forehead with her eyes glassy when I walked out of my room in it. I quickly shake my head to prevent myself from walking down that memory lane and breaking down again, like I have been these past days... Years. "I don't think I should... " I start saying but she pushes the dress to my chest and pull me up, dragging me into the bathroom. "Dress. We don't have much time left. " I sigh before staring at the dress like it's the last thing I'm going to do. I clutch it to my chest and rest against the wall, almost as if I'm holding something very important to my heart. It holds so many memories. So many memories than I ever thought it was going to. I never thought of it as something that could have turned out to be so important to me. This is important but right now, it is. I blink my eyes before pushing myself off the wall and undressing then slowly putting on the dress. The material feels silky against my skin and I touch it, feeling its warmth around it before I turn to the mirror. The dress hugs my body perfectly and I don't look like a high school student, I look like an adult. More like a college student. I still don't like it despite how much I love the feeling of the dress around me. I breathe out before staring down at myself, the dress stops at the middle of my thighs and the chest area tightens around me, pushing my chest more than it should. I walk out of the room, feeling slightly uncomfortable cause it's tighter than I remember and Kira's eyes widen when I appear in front of her. "Damn babe! You look so fucking hot. " She says when a cheeky smile while I merely roll my eyes. I don't want to look hot... Not that I am anyways. "I still will go with my tank top and my... " I stop talking when she glares at me and she chuckles before grabbing my hand and dragging me to sit down while she tries to do something with my hair. After a few minutes, I look at the mirror and my hair is in a better shape than it was earlier. "Okay, almost done. I just need to put on make-up. ""No, you know I don't love makeups. Don't, let me just go like this. I think I have done more than enough for tonight. " I groan and she shakes her head. "No, I want you to live your life like it's the last day you're gonna live. We are gonna be having a lot of fun and maybe act a little naughty. You should dress up pretty well, after all. It's for one night anyway. " She winks at me before removing my glasses grabbing the blush and nodding to myself. That's right. It's for only one night. Just this one night for me to live my life as it had been before. Just this one night for me to forget about everything that happened between these past few years and live like nothing matters anymore. Not that anything does anyways. Just this one night for me to get out of my shell, shielding me away from the world and have fun. Just one night for me to forget about the pain that I carry in my chest and the scars that have to remain permanently scarred to the depth of my soul. Just this one night. And after this night, I'm gonna return to my shell. Returning to being the quiet and the ever so miserable Dawn.

Chapter 3 Chapter Three: The Stranger

DAWN. "Damn! This place looks so heavenly. " Kira squeals as we all arrive at the entrance of the club and we all stare around the building. It smells like fun in there and I instantly cringe. Different people trooping in and out and some hanging around by the side, mostly those that are making out against the wall. I gulp in before we all make our way inside and it looks, even more, better on the inside than it looks on the outside. The music booms through the entire room and I can hardly hear a single thing in here except the loud music booming through with people swaying my body towards the beat. "Okay, boys and girls. Welcome to fun!!! " Bryan shouts over the loud music and I clutch tightly to my bag and my novel which I still plan on reading but I think that plan might go flatly down the ruin cause there's no way in hell I can even think of reading in a place like this. I breathe out as we finally push through the crowd and all grab a seat, facing the bartender. I can't help but to turn back and stare around everywhere, bodies gliding against each other on the dance floor and people drinking themselves to stupor. They all ordered for something while I keep wondering how the hell I'm gonna read the novel in here. The light is dimmed in here and the loud music would not allow me to enjoy a thing of what I will read. I sigh, still holding tightly to the novel when I'm trapped by someone. I swirl in my seat, and it's this strange guy or man? He has dark hair and green eyes. In short, he looks really intimidating and even quite older than me. "What will you like to have, babe? " Wait, what? Babe? Did he just call me babe? I'm more or less like his younger sister. I guess Kira did a number on me. I feel like I'm not a high school student either. "Um, nothing. Thanks. " I start moving the stool back, hoping my friends would at least pay some attention towards me but they are all busy drinking and yelling over the loud music. "Oh, come on. I know a pretty girl like you will want something to drink. Am I not right? " He says with a cheeky smile and I shake my head. He brings his hand to my cheek and I slap it away instantly. "Stay the fuck away from me! " I yell over the loud music, earning the friend's attention of course. "Old man. Get away from her! " Jason hisses, coming towards me and the man growls, turning to him. I can see the darkness in his eyes and I'm scared he would hurt Jason. "And if I don't stay away from you, what will you do? " The man starts moving towards him and I can feel him shaking but he's trying to act brave. This is why it isn't a good idea for high school students to come to a club. It's full of lots of crazy people who only want to either get off with any lady they see or drink themselves to stupor. I told the guys I wasn't interested anyways but they had refused to listen to me. Now, it has turned to this. "It's not what he will do. It's about what we will do. " The other guys show up, standing behind Jason, who seems to have suddenly gained confidence from there. "You heard him. Stay away from her, old man. Go find another pussy to stick your damn dick in! " I'm not surprised at all when Bryan had said that. He's known to be quite wild anyways. "And what do you think you little will do to me if I don't say away from her? ""I don't think you should underestimate people that much, stay the fuck away from her or I swear you're going to regret it!" Bryan snarls, obviously hoping that would scare him away but he only scoffs before turning back to me, his eyes boring into me. "I will have you later, I promise." He winks before walking away while I release a breath I didn't realise I was holding. "Are you okay? '' Bryan asks, sitting beside me and placing his hand on the small of my back and I nod, smiling at him. "I need a drink. " I sigh. Maybe for once in my life, I should forget about everything. I'm tired of staying here, being the only one that cares about everything. Been the only one that the whole weighs on highly. "Are you sure? " He raises his brows at me and I chuckle before nodding. Just let me join the queue of those drinking themselves to stupor tonight. After all, it's just for this one night and although I had planned originally to stay by the sidelines I don't think that's going to work anymore. *** "Damn! That's the sixth drink you will have in ten minutes. " Lily said, staring at me and I chuckle, smiling at her before grabbing the glass and gulping down the drink in one shot. It's better than I thought. It helps me to not care about everything and to not think about anything either. I feel like the more I drink, the less I care about everything that's going on around me. The more I feel numb about everything. I wanted more. More and more, and I plan on getting it. I pass the bartender the glass and he stares at me, a disapproving look spread across his face. He doesn't understand. He wouldn't. I need to drink until I feel entirely numb. I need to drink until I can't think right anymore. My ability to think is slowly fading away and I need it to fade away entirely. I will have to drink to achieve that. "That's the sixth glass you will have. It's really strong, are you sure you can handle it? " He raises his brows at me and I giggle before nodding. He sighs but doesn't object and pass me another and I gulp it down immediately. The drink burned down my throat and was hot on my tongue. I close my eyes for a brief moment, allowing the drink to slide down and fade away from my senses. I breathe out, opening my eyes and staring across the room. I can feel the weight lift away from my heart and my body feels entirely numb. "Are you okay? " I turn and it's Brad. No Aidan. No, it's Ethan. Damn! I think I might have had a lot of drinks, I can't even say Dylan name properly. Oh god! It's Bryan! "Yeah, never... Never been better. " The words slur through my mouth and for once, I can feel everything not making sense. "This is what I'm talking about when I said we should have fun! Damn! I'm fucking happy! " Kira nods her head to the beat of the music and I giggle along with her. Geez! When did I start giggling? "Why are you not drinking? " I turn to Ethan... Bryan, who for some weird reason, has been staring at me. "I need to look after you. You are wasted. " He says and I roll my eyes before turning back to the others. I don't want to be taken care of. I feel like that cycle has been repeating over and over in my entire life! "I want to dance.." I shout over the loud music and a pair of eyes turn to me immediately while I giggle. "I feel like doing the same thing, come on girl. Let's rock this fucking party!" Lily starts rocking her hips as she stands up and make her way over to me. I giggle before attempting to stand up but I'm pulled back by Bryan. "Are you sure you're going to be alright?" He stares at me with concern written all over his face but I flip him off. "Oh come on! I'm not a kid." I roll my eyes at him before moving to the dance floor with the girls. I move my hips around, even though I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing but it feels so damn good that I can't stop it. One moment, I was dancing with the girls and the second moment, I'm rocking my hips against another's and I have no idea who it is but telling by the way his slight erection presses to my hips, I can tell it's a guy. I don't care though and I just keep moving my hips against his and his hands moves down pinching my hips and a strange feeling shoots through my body before he turns me swiftly back and my breathing got caught. I'm staring at the most beautiful pair of eyes I've ever seen and it shines under the dimmed light. I can't quite put out his face because before I could take in his complete feature, his lips descend on mine. Hands going around my waist and before I could think, I'm kissing back.

Chapter 4 Chapter Four: Waking up

DAWN. I don't know how the fuck we did it but right now, I'm inside the car or we are both inside the car and I can't keep my own fucking hands to myself. Oh, God! I don't know what the hell I'm doing and neither am I thinking straight but I know that I love what he's doing. With his hands, his fingers, his mouth. Everything. I fucking love the way my body feels in his arms and I can't stop, I don't even want to stop. Instead, I want more. He finally pulls away from me, staring at me as I straddle his laps and I stare right back at him. Now, I can finally have a good view of his face. His hair is pushed to the back and his eyes are a deep shade of brown with some glints of grey dancing around them. They look so captivating and I find myself getting drawn to him. Without thinking twice about it, I lace my fingers through his hair and he lets out a soft sigh as if he had been waiting all night for me to do that. I begin to slowly move my hips against his laps, my body moving without my consent and I know it's the alcohol working in my system but I don't think I regret a damn thing. At least not now. "Fuck!" He groans as my hips move against his erection that's practically poking me. His lips fall on mine and I don't waste another second before I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back. The kiss is slow and intoxicating at first but then it picked up the pace and he kisses me rougher, harder. His hands roam around my entire body that all thoughts immediately vanishes from my mind, going down the drain. His hand brushes up to my ass, rubbing circles around it at the same time his lips meet with the skin of my neck and I let out a soft moan shamefully. His lips trail down my neck and I allow my head to fall to the back as he trails kisses down my neck before he rests his lips on my cleavage that's slightly showing through the dress. He stills his movement for a moment and I raise my head to stare at him, he's staring right back at me. An emotion that I can't point out across his face but I'm too drunk into what's happening right now to start figuring out what's wrong. I open my mouth to say something but almost immediately he brushes my dress up, his finger rubbing against my inner thigh and the words I had wanted to spill out go down my throat as I let out a small gasp. He doesn't take his eyes away from me as he brushes the dress further up with his fingers moving higher into my inner thigh while my fingers remain laced in his hair which is awesomely soft against my touch. "Oh, God!" I whimper, moans sliding through my throat as he rubs me through the thin material of my pant, never for once breaking eye contact with it and that only drove me even higher and turned me on even more. I feel him move the pant to the side before he slides one finger inside me and I groan, arching my back against the steering wheel, a loud moan erupting from my throat. He works his fingers faster inside of me, pumping in and out and I feel the slight sting that comes along with it but I endure it all for the pleasure that comes with it. It drives me high and higher and higher till I can't handle it anymore and I can feel my high coming. He doesn't stop, he keeps going. Circling, rubbing, slapping, pumping in and out. I find myself in a state of daze, I'm trapped and there's nothing I can do as I remain utterly and completely at the mercy of the stranger that's staring at me right now with his finger buried deep inside of me He adds another finger and goes slowly at first when I wince slightly at the pain. He doesn't say anything but just stare at me, almost as if he could read me and after some minutes, he picks up pace. Driving me higher to my pleasure and completely insane. I can feel my body about to erupt and just when I'm about to get to my high, he pulls completely away from me and I finally come out from the daze that I'm in, staring at him in complete shock and wondering what the hell just happened. Without saying anything, he moves me off his laps and starts the car, speeding up faster than normal and I can feel my stomach clutching at the fact that this isn't the end. He plans on doing a lot more and I plan on letting him in, even when I have no idea of what I'm doing. I don't take note of my surroundings or where we are, I'm too deep inside his throat to care about that as he kisses me against the door and tries to open the door at the same time. He finally manages to open the door and he closes it back, slamming me against the door as his lips move all over my body. His hands go over my thighs and he lifts them, wrapping my legs around his waist before slowly moving back and the next thing I feel is my back against the soft material. ** I groan as I stand up and hold my head between my hands. Damn! My head hurts like crazy, terribly crazy and I have such a headache. I sigh as I stare down at myself to see that I'm naked. Entirely naked except for the duvet which is covering me. What the hell happened? Why am I naked? When did aunt remove my clothes without me even noticing? I look around my room, only to discover that my room isn't my room and my mouth falls open as I stare around the place. Oh my god! This isn't my room! What the hell! What the hell has happened here? How the hell am I here? What the fuck am I doing here? Where is this place? So many questions run through my mind as I try to remember what the hell could be the reason that I'm here, on a strangers bed and naked. I try to put the pieces together and the last thing I remember is going to the club with my friends and allowing myself to get loose. Drowning down drinks. I remember going up to the dance floor to dance and I... I can remember dancing against someone. I can't remember their face and I can't remember what the hell happened after that. Oh, God! What the fuck have I done? I slam my hand against my cheek, shaking my head and looking around to see my clothes scattered across the floor. I let out a sigh as I try standing up and I wince at the pain that shoots through me. As if on cue, my eyes widened immediately and I stare down at myself. Oh, God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my fucking God! I can't... This isn't... Oh, God! I didn't... I… I didn't...I didn't have sex with a stranger, did I? I couldn't have, I mean I couldn't have but then who the hell am I kidding? The evidence is all around. Oh god! I just had a one night stand with someone. And not just anyone! A stranger I don't even know and now, that stranger isn't here anymore. He probably flew away after getting what he wants from me. Oh god! I'm so stupid! Tears roll down my cheeks as I drop down to the floor with my head between my hands. Just one night. One night has destroyed my entire life.