I was having something on my mind lately. After seeing almost all my friends getting boyfriends, I started getting curious about what love is about? Does it feel that good? Because of that, I'm trying to learn through reading some romance manga and watching anime as well.

I started understanding why all my friends act dumb when they fall in love. When I was reading the romance manga, without realizing it, I was already smiling like a fool, getting carried away with this new sensation in my heart.

"Uh.... I wish I was more feminine..." I muttered in a low voice as I walked towards school.

Of course I realize I don't look like any of the female characters in the manga. Even my female friends think I'm more like a man. Sometimes I wonder, am I actually a girl?

I started feeling insecure about it, since I'm not cute or beautiful like other girls. Even my voice is too loud and sometimes I get called a duck voice. Quite the opposite of a beautiful woman.

As I entered the school, I noticed there was almost no one there yet. Walking to the shoe locker, I saw some boys from my class had already arrived.

"Oh, the boys are already here... Maybe I should ask them what type of girl they like?" Thinking that, I started walking towards the class, growing nervous and shy.

As I was about to enter the classroom, I heard the boys talking about something, and they looked serious. Instinctively, I hid behind the door before entering.

Apparently, they were talking about which girls in the class they wanted to date, but as the conversation went on, no one mentioned my name. Ah.... Am I really not that desirable?

I couldn't help feeling down about it. I just sat in front of the door, hugging my knees, feeling insecure and waiting for them to finish so I could enter the class.