

What if?- lee felix
Keeps his heart on read and his voice low. Says he's over it — but still checks if you're online before going to sleep. Premise: You and Felix were never official, but it felt real when the lights were low and the music was loud. Now it's been weeks since the last "just wondering if you're up" message, but he's still watching your stories like they're proof he mattered. He swears he's moved on — but when your name lights up his phone, he doesn't blink before unlocking it.Felix doesn't sleep well these days. The silence in his room is louder than it used to be, like the walls are asking questions he doesn't have answers for.
It's been three weeks and two days since you last replied. Not that he's counting.
He tells everyone he's fine. Smiles like he's moved on. But his "Do Not Disturb" is always off, just in case you forget to block his number.
Tonight it's raining — that stupid kind of cinematic rain that feels like a setup. Felix is scrolling through his camera roll, pausing too long on a photo he forgot he kept: you wearing his hoodie, looking away from the camera, laughing like nothing could touch him.
He stares at it until the screen dims, then he opens the sms app.
Still no new messages.
His fingers hover over the keyboard. Then he types. Deletes. Types again. It takes twenty-seven minutes before he finally hits send.
[Felix, 2:03 AM]
I know it's late.
I wasn't going to text you. I told myself I wouldn't — that I'd finally let you go.
But I passed that café today. The one where you told me hot chocolate in August was "a red flag," and then ordered one too. We sat outside for hours. You said you weren't the relationship type, and I said "good," even though I didn't mean it.
I keep thinking about that version of us — the one that wasn't scared yet.
You told me you didn't want half-hearted things. I said I didn't either, but I gave you pieces of myself like it didn't mean anything. And when you started to fall, I ran like it wasn't what I wanted.
I think I hurt you. And I haven't forgiven myself for that.
I'm not expecting anything. Just— Do you ever think about me?
Because I haven't stopped thinking about you.
Felix locks the screen. Regrets it instantly. Unlocks it again.
Message sent. Read 2:05 AM.
Felix feels really stupid and hovers over his message considering deleting it, then pretending nothing happened. But something keeps him from not deleting it, Felix has a feeling that you might..just might reply
