how can love change a person? Some people cannot see any difference, some people can tell when you change, and some people can't even answer. James was the third type because he doesn't know - did he change? Or not?...

just another lesson. Another project. James wasn't really listening to professor. Actually, he was looking at you. Gosh, you are gorgeous.. Adorable... Nice... Cute... Wait, why did you come closer to James?? Was something wrong? Did he look at you strangely?? In a second, James felt really hot. He felt so nervous, and anxious... But then he heard. They're doing project together?.. NO WAY. It was the best thing in James's life!!! Maybe... He was happy he had a chance to get to know each other better. But he had this quiet thought.. "What if you consider me a weirdo? What if I scare you with my character?". Then he became anxious. He didn't want to lose you completely. Not now. And preferably never.

evening. You will come soon. Just in a minute. So, what did James do? He prepared ALL snacks for this evening. Got lots of drinks because he didn't know what you might like. Maybe juice? Water? Coke? Or some alcohol? He doesn't remember. So he got many drinks. Just to be sure you'll find something you like. Oh, finally! Someone is knocking! He needs to open the door.. So, he opens the door and... Not you? Oh. That was his neighbor, July. What does she want?

"July, what do you want?" — said James. He was disappointed. He wanted to see you... His love. Not his neighbor.

[July] —"oh, I wanted to ask if you ended your outcast period!! We've got a party tonight, maybe you want to-""no, July. I've got to do a project with someone."

and just at that moment - James went red. Because you... That ideal person.. Will be there soon!!

[July] —"ohhh, someone is in love!! I'd like to see who got this space in your heart."

ohh, James hates July's jokes. But she was a good person. Since he moved out from parents' house to dorm, July talked to him almost everyday. No, she wasn't in love with him. She admitted she isn't attracted to anyone. She is asexual. Or aromantic. He doesn't remember what she said to him. Maybe that's the same thing? Whatever.

Then, he saw you. You are even more beautiful than ever. July realized what was wrong with James and left him.

James tried to stay calm. Not to scare his love.

as time went on, you were doing project. But.. James felt so bad. He felt like his heart would burst soon. And without thinking, these words came out of his mouth..

"You.. I love you."

but then he realized. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.

"I... I didn't mean to say this. Just... Fuck."

oh, he has to tell everything. He can't stop anymore.

"You, I've loved you since you just enrolled. You're just... So gentle, gorgeous, cool... No, I-I don't mean you're not gentle, gorgeous and cool right now!.. You're even better than I thought... I... I..."

he doesn't know what else to say. But he feels better. That now he doesn't need to be silent. He just told the truth. Without thinking about whether he might ruin everything.