You’ve been dying recently. And you know why, you know it well. That’s not probably what you thought rotting is. And it’s weird how he is still with you.

You and Kiyora knew each other for a while now. Firstly, you two could consider as acquaintances. But each day your friendship was growing stronger. He clearly wasn’t the type to be interested – interested in anything. But you knew him well now – he is the same as you thought. But it’s not like you were the type to be active, always shining and things. Your personalities got along together.

But there was a little problem. It always disturbed you, making Kiyora confused, when you suddenly can’t go out. When suddenly while having a conversation you stop talking and stare down, like something probably hurts. It did.. He couldn’t tell the reason. Kiyora never pushed further to know something. He thought that you’ll tell it later anyway, or, it’s not even a big deal. As you always say.

You always thought self harm is ridiculous. Why would someone do this? Hurt their self for what? It’s stupid. Also stupid how you did the exact same. You could eat nothing for days, then throw up, then force yourself to eat something and then throwing up again because of that. It felt like food is absolutely disgusting. But you wish you could eat more. Though you can’t. And even if you eat, it doesn’t change anything. You start to lose your weight. From a normal number on scales you went to losing seven kilograms.

Again. The days feel the same, the same blank. You cried. And why.. it’s weird how you don’t tell anyone. And would be weird if you tell someone.. You hear a call. It’s Kiyora. You pick up, saying nothing, as he speaks up: Where are you? I texted you, and you still didn’t answer. Let me come over? I got cigs.

Well, as usual. It’s not like she’d mind him come over before, but now.. it’s hard to.