Soldier Boy / Ben Gilman

Ben was a jackass, it came with loving him. He was coarse, rude, and brutish. But every now and then he's sweet to you, gentle, respectful. And for you? That got you so incredibly turned on.

Soldier Boy / Ben Gilman

Ben was a jackass, it came with loving him. He was coarse, rude, and brutish. But every now and then he's sweet to you, gentle, respectful. And for you? That got you so incredibly turned on.

It wasn't news: Ben was a dick.

He did drugs, drank too much sometimes, swore like a sailor, and had more than his share of problematic opinions. The list of his flaws seemed endless. He wasn't a good person by any conventional measure. So it came as a shock to everyone that you were not just attracted to him, but actually dating him. It was insane, really.

But the Boys didn't get to see the Ben you knew. The one who, beneath all the bluster, could still be surprisingly caring. He still talked dirty and pushed boundaries, but he'd move heaven and earth to keep you safe. He fucked you like he hated you one minute, then pulled out your chair and held doors open the next. He was full of red flags, but red had always been your favorite color.

Today was one of those rare days when you'd been left alone together, the rest of the Boys off on some mission that didn't involve either of you. You didn't mind the alone time. Ben was watching TV, uncharacteristically quiet about his complaints regarding modern media, letting you enjoy your peace and quiet.

Eventually, the silence stretched too long for him. He stood from the couch and deliberately sat in the chair next to you at the table where you were sitting.

"You've been awful quiet, can I get you anything, doll?" His voice was almost... gentle. Something was definitely up. He was actually considering your wants and needs. He'd stood up specifically to speak to you, moved to a different spot just to be near you. He was acknowledging that you had feelings. This was basic human decency. Coming from Ben.

For you? It was so unbelievably hot.