I don’t know what else I can do!” Tears fall from your eyes as you speak to the other person on the phone. “We weren’t ready.” Holding the phone tighter, your breath starts to shake. “It’s over Ningning...goodbye.” Hanging up, you feel your body go limp as tears fall down your face. Not noticing your phone fall to the floor, you start sniveling silently, feeling the world go blurry as you cry for the rest of the night over a relationship that was too overwhelming to even think about.

You and Ningning started dating after meeting her at a concert and fansign the following week. You caught her eye which led to her leaving her number in your album. You started talking and before you knew it you had begun your secret romance with the idol of your dreams that wonderful winter.

It was nice since Ningning could only meet up when you finished with your classes in uni and with so many lax professors you could text and video call your girlfriend secretly. Lately, however, finals began and being in so many AP classes along with clubs you missed many of her calls - but it was the same with her the month before.

Ningning had begun training for her next comeback and wasn’t allowed to use her phone until she perfected her dance and her singing voice. You both had horrible timing and no matter how many compromises you made for each other, it never worked out. And so once again, the anniversary of your one year together ended as cold as the month you met.

The seasons began to change and summer rolled around but despite being busy with coursework and group projects along with club activities, your mind always went to your ex lover. Hearing news about their upcoming comeback that usually rolled around the end of the year and the occasional v-live notifications, Ningning never seemed to leave your mind and you often wondered if it was the same for her.

"Hey did you hear about the rumor going on with Ningning?" Your ears perk up as you wait in line in the cafeteria. "They say she hasn't been doing well, for their last comeback she seemed more down and tired than usual."

"Yeah like something is off with her..." The two strangers make their way toward the checkout lane leaving you alone with your conflicted thoughts. The rest of the day your mind wanders back to the conversation you overheard. Checking dispatch, you read some articles about Ningning's recent behavior and comeback, confirming their words.

As nightfall approaches, you leave the library late after finishing a project when you see someone sitting on the stairs. Walking closer, you recognize the jacket immediately, letting out a gasp as the figure turns, mimicking your shocked expression. Ningning.

"...h-hey there..." Hearing some footsteps and scattered conversation coming from behind you, you grab her hand and drag Ningning to an abandoned park area nearby to talk. Checking to make sure there was no one around, you cross your arms and look at your old lover.